today i met with another cancer "survivor" ,,, these are the best meetings,,,, to talk to people ""on the other side"" ,,,,,,, i.e. .. healed...... or cured
he's been tracking / supporting my fight, and the ALL NATURAL way i'm battling... he's really impressed with my success,, he saw the tumor when it was still golf-ball size, late july...
it's AMAZING !!!! , we all agree..
this is just a quickie today ,,,
FALL arrived !! i don't like the cold..
sept 21st ,, that line on my neck if from my breather, i was sanding
it looks a bit bigger ,, but it's NOT , i've lost more un-needed fat on my neck , and little buddy shows more............ it WAS from my earlobe - to almost my adams apple .. a big hand full , just weeks ago
have a safe & loving weekend
Saturday, September 22, 2012
Friday, September 21, 2012
my cancer A-B-C's
i thought this up the other day.. kinda harsh in spots, but you'll be ok reading it
my cancer A B C's
A. is for absolute horror
B. is for bitch . as in cancer is a bitch
C. is for chemotherapy .. no way !!! stay away !!
D. is for DEATH,,, a side effect of "treatment"
E. is for everybody
F. thinks you're fucked
G. Get ready
H. for the Hell on the way
I. is for insane
J. is for Jagged needles
K. is for KILL YOU
L. long and horribly slow
M. is for Murder
N. that the AMA never gets charged for
O. is Opiates,, they intensify
P. PAIN . yes they do
Q. is for unanswered questions
R. is for Radiation,,,, are you serious??
S. surgery will take your soul
T. "Treatment" .." we'll barely keep you alive - to treat you"
U. ugly scars
V .VERY frightened is how you feel
W. is for wellness,, you're on your own
X. the amount of WASTED $$$ on bad "research"
Y. is for WHY ??? why is cancer worse now than 50 years ago ?
Z. is for ZERO,, that's how much HOPE you have , when they scare you
now you know my ABC's
and that cancer is a "cure-able" disease
my cancer A B C's
A. is for absolute horror
B. is for bitch . as in cancer is a bitch
C. is for chemotherapy .. no way !!! stay away !!
D. is for DEATH,,, a side effect of "treatment"
E. is for everybody
F. thinks you're fucked
G. Get ready
H. for the Hell on the way
I. is for insane
J. is for Jagged needles
K. is for KILL YOU
L. long and horribly slow
M. is for Murder
N. that the AMA never gets charged for
O. is Opiates,, they intensify
P. PAIN . yes they do
Q. is for unanswered questions
R. is for Radiation,,,, are you serious??
S. surgery will take your soul
T. "Treatment" .." we'll barely keep you alive - to treat you"
U. ugly scars
V .VERY frightened is how you feel
W. is for wellness,, you're on your own
X. the amount of WASTED $$$ on bad "research"
Y. is for WHY ??? why is cancer worse now than 50 years ago ?
Z. is for ZERO,, that's how much HOPE you have , when they scare you
now you know my ABC's
and that cancer is a "cure-able" disease
Thursday, September 20, 2012
and - scene!
our dog Zuzu got spayed today, and she recovering in my room tonight.. the two dogs are usually going wild with fun,, and tonight she is so calm and bummed out.. and a few pain wimpers now and then
i feel great . day two at my new day job,, it's nice NOT being the boss , or the guy who has to answer to angry customers.. i'm the shop lacky.. - go get the 5/8ths wrench,, sweep the floor, sand this, etc... awesome , a no brainer job,, in the day , i can buy food again.
i enjoy having a part time job, to supplement the entertainment $$,, and i am able to work both,, so i'll be back on track very soon ..
i can feel my tumor , but it's barely visible, even to me , and i know where it is.. it is supposed to be as big as a lemon NOW,, and as big as a grapefruit in december.. hmmmmm, somebody was way off on that prediction.... and i am feeling way better than "barely alive, so we can treat you".. i can also talk and swallow.. like i said- i'm feeling really good..
another bad one-liner -- 3 weeks ago, - "cancer-- the best thing that's ever happened to me" ...........................
because i got my diet in order, got a good slap in the face by reality, and re-focused my life on being healthy,, not being " something".. and i met some really nice people too.. it was horrible the first few weeks, but since i decided to do what i'm doing,, i've only had myself to bring me down.. and i know better than to be bummed out...
be careful this weekend everyone,,, spread some love.. help someone you don't know,, that's a good thought
i feel great . day two at my new day job,, it's nice NOT being the boss , or the guy who has to answer to angry customers.. i'm the shop lacky.. - go get the 5/8ths wrench,, sweep the floor, sand this, etc... awesome , a no brainer job,, in the day , i can buy food again.
i enjoy having a part time job, to supplement the entertainment $$,, and i am able to work both,, so i'll be back on track very soon ..
i can feel my tumor , but it's barely visible, even to me , and i know where it is.. it is supposed to be as big as a lemon NOW,, and as big as a grapefruit in december.. hmmmmm, somebody was way off on that prediction.... and i am feeling way better than "barely alive, so we can treat you".. i can also talk and swallow.. like i said- i'm feeling really good..
another bad one-liner -- 3 weeks ago, - "cancer-- the best thing that's ever happened to me" ...........................
because i got my diet in order, got a good slap in the face by reality, and re-focused my life on being healthy,, not being " something".. and i met some really nice people too.. it was horrible the first few weeks, but since i decided to do what i'm doing,, i've only had myself to bring me down.. and i know better than to be bummed out...
be careful this weekend everyone,,, spread some love.. help someone you don't know,, that's a good thought
closing in ....
i had to bail on a show,, i was able to work today , and even worked longer than expected.. yippeeeee !!
i haven't "worked",, as in day type job , since june 2nd ,, so i've become a weenie,, i was fried when i got home, so i canceled my spot ,, i would have been way too tired, on the drive home,,, i don't need to get hurt, because i'm tired,, that would be stupid... i'm doing so well in my battle..
26 days till i get re tested,,
i met a guy today ,, i gave him my super quickie story,, and --- he said he had ulcer problems, for 17 years , about +$20,000,, in bills,, the doctors said they couldn't do anything else for him... he said he went to "asia" on vacation,, saw a doctor there...... guess what ,, 3 different "crazy herbs" ,, and two weeks later , NO ulcer,,, and no stomach problems since..
i say these crazy "one liner's" about my cancer .. this week ----
""i'm the LUCKIEST cancer victim ever""
............................ because i can see my tumor, well not much any more , and it's not deep inside me,, or on a super important body part,, it's just a ride along ,, getting kicked to the curb, and my side effects so far are good ones ! i feel great..
little Zuzu gets fixed in the morning,, she's had a tuff life,, and we're so happy she's with us,, i'm just worried,, but this is done all the time, and she should be ok... how we are going to keep her "still" for 10 days is a challenge awaiting
well . i missed my midnight super deadline,, but i was too zombied earlier,,
i haven't "worked",, as in day type job , since june 2nd ,, so i've become a weenie,, i was fried when i got home, so i canceled my spot ,, i would have been way too tired, on the drive home,,, i don't need to get hurt, because i'm tired,, that would be stupid... i'm doing so well in my battle..
26 days till i get re tested,,
i met a guy today ,, i gave him my super quickie story,, and --- he said he had ulcer problems, for 17 years , about +$20,000,, in bills,, the doctors said they couldn't do anything else for him... he said he went to "asia" on vacation,, saw a doctor there...... guess what ,, 3 different "crazy herbs" ,, and two weeks later , NO ulcer,,, and no stomach problems since..
i say these crazy "one liner's" about my cancer .. this week ----
""i'm the LUCKIEST cancer victim ever""
............................ because i can see my tumor, well not much any more , and it's not deep inside me,, or on a super important body part,, it's just a ride along ,, getting kicked to the curb, and my side effects so far are good ones ! i feel great..
little Zuzu gets fixed in the morning,, she's had a tuff life,, and we're so happy she's with us,, i'm just worried,, but this is done all the time, and she should be ok... how we are going to keep her "still" for 10 days is a challenge awaiting
well . i missed my midnight super deadline,, but i was too zombied earlier,,
Tuesday, September 18, 2012
more good stuff
i see the chiropractor every 3 weeks,, for my old neck issue,, it's the best 45 seconds of the month.. snap crackle pop, !! bam .. every thing is great
the receptionist said that i look better than i ever have ,, and that's over 3 years of visits.. the guy with cancer looks great !!! wow
this would have been week 6 of radiation,, my throat / swallowing would have been in bad shape by now,, and the feeding tube would be my source of nutrition .. eeeeeek !!!,, and i would have been actually shitty at / to the world, because i didn't want any of radiation... and the visits to and from the cancer center would just fill you up with negative energy.. how could you possibly get better ???
so , on my own, with support from all of you out there , i feel great,, my progress is way beyond what the "treatment" would have had me at.. and no side effects, besides being bummed out because i do have cancer still..
summation :: feeling good , tumor is hard to see,, no issues with my throat, lost all my crappy food fat.. waiting to be tested in october ,, they are going to be very shocked,,
"impossible" ,, "you need chemo"," we'll be keeping you alive- to treat you",, i'm not sure how these words are going to taste to the doctors,,, maybe with some Thai-peanut sauce??,, but they will go for the ranch dressing for sure...
ok & awesome !!
the receptionist said that i look better than i ever have ,, and that's over 3 years of visits.. the guy with cancer looks great !!! wow
this would have been week 6 of radiation,, my throat / swallowing would have been in bad shape by now,, and the feeding tube would be my source of nutrition .. eeeeeek !!!,, and i would have been actually shitty at / to the world, because i didn't want any of radiation... and the visits to and from the cancer center would just fill you up with negative energy.. how could you possibly get better ???
so , on my own, with support from all of you out there , i feel great,, my progress is way beyond what the "treatment" would have had me at.. and no side effects, besides being bummed out because i do have cancer still..
summation :: feeling good , tumor is hard to see,, no issues with my throat, lost all my crappy food fat.. waiting to be tested in october ,, they are going to be very shocked,,
"impossible" ,, "you need chemo"," we'll be keeping you alive- to treat you",, i'm not sure how these words are going to taste to the doctors,,, maybe with some Thai-peanut sauce??,, but they will go for the ranch dressing for sure...
ok & awesome !!
Monday, September 17, 2012
bad thinking
i must confess i was bummed out yesterday / today ,, about not having a day job,, how stupid am i ?? i'm "beating cancer" and i'm bummed out about $$ .. whata dumbass.
i've been debt free for years,, so owing anyone any $$ is a drag... and again ,, whata dumbass...
some people are $20,000 deep , or more ,, and i'm freaking out about not too much at all,
i have the hard worker gene , from my family,, so not working, and ending up , just a bit in debt , is grating my DNA... and again,, whata dumbass...... the day job i've been waiting on called , and i can get some time starting wednesday .. yay !!!
well.. now i feel better .. i've just been thinking of the wrong stuff.. whata dumbass
snap out of it otto !!!
.
i've been debt free for years,, so owing anyone any $$ is a drag... and again ,, whata dumbass...
some people are $20,000 deep , or more ,, and i'm freaking out about not too much at all,
i have the hard worker gene , from my family,, so not working, and ending up , just a bit in debt , is grating my DNA... and again,, whata dumbass...... the day job i've been waiting on called , and i can get some time starting wednesday .. yay !!!
well.. now i feel better .. i've just been thinking of the wrong stuff.. whata dumbass
snap out of it otto !!!
.
Sunday, September 16, 2012
sunny sunday
quickie post,
all is good , i can't wait to be re-tested..
i need many more gigs,, i am ready to work all the time again
stay true
all is good , i can't wait to be re-tested..
i need many more gigs,, i am ready to work all the time again
stay true
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