it's been on my to do lists for weeks
almost one month since my last update. nothing amazing still .
i do like october , my dad's birthday , Rapper's birthday , my sister Mary's b-day, and my sobriety b-day 10 -28-1988.
25 years in just a few days... years ago i joked about being able to drink again , if i made it 25 years. 15 years ago, i chucked about the same idea, "only 10 years to go". July of 2012 , when i was assimilating all the cancer ideas, Rapper asked if i had thought about "alcohol therapy" , and i said - "if they are giving me Chemo , i am for sure drinking"
( another reason for me to not want chemo ).
drinking was gonna kill me , or i was gonna ruin my life with it.. it's legal, but just not for me . i haven't missed anything because i don't drink. and not drinking was easy , just don't touch it, don't put it in your mouth.. taa daaa.. cured.. physically .. took a few years for the mental aspect. and the jury is still out on that
i saw my mom put her last cigarette out, she said "
that's the last one " and it was. 34 years of smoking , done in one second. seeing that has been my inspirational moment of all time .. anything can be done!!
so switching my diet to fight & erase my cancer was not difficult , i did that in 10 seconds. and i'm still on it , & guess what - won't ever change
i'm not special, anyone can do what i did. when you are ready to change your life , you will .. some things help you decide, some things keep you on the same path.
i haven't written because nothing out side of normal has been going on,, i'm just a worker bee , like most of you , wake up, do my routine, go to work, eat all day, practice, or do a show, walk the dog, freak out about the future, go to sleep..
things don't go my way all the time , just like you . i went to get a present for rapper , , my car died ,, my diagnosis - battery , cap , rotor,, nope- DANG .. , 3 days later , distributor... runs like a champ now.
leaky radiator, all summer, so i've been using straight water, tomorrow it's gonna be 30 ... , i THOUGHT a new radiator would be $300 + , so i never looked,, ordered one last night $ 328 - sale price + free shipping = $ 57...........
57 !! what a dumbass i've been ,, $60 would have fixed me up months ago.. but i didn't look
i've been thinking of the wrong stuff,, it was, for so long , fight cancer, beat cancer , over and over. blah.. then that got lifted off me .. my mind got free'd up again..
in the last 15 months i did learn how to relax . and do nothing. it was important to heal, now, my showbiz mind is re-activated, and i feel guilty if i just relax. ya gotta be doing something !!! tic tic tic ,, come on!! get something going ,,bla bla bla.
health wise , super good
pain barely, not stretching enough
attitude,. better . i got this blog written
strength added more reps to the weights
cancer thoughts.. frequently , and 3 months until 18 from diagnosis.. pretty wacky
when i got diagnosed, my comedy mind, thought ,, "wow, all this new material" , but nope,, not too much funny stuff about cancer.. funny to ME , but not the general public.. so i'll keep my mouth shut
i did get to tell my story last week to a small group who actually wanted to hear it. i wish i could do that professionally ..
and i was having trouble with "life's general purpose" we can talk about that next time ,,
stay healthy , and don't let your taste buds fool you