big moment , really happy

i am calm,  finally .   i talked to my Dad,, he's ok  with  no CT  test. 

 that was the last "hurdle " for me ... i feel like i'm free now..

i did eat too much last week, and i am up to 154..   i feel chubby today,, just a few weeks ago i was in the low 140's...   it was kind of an experiment,,, i wanted to see if i could  gain weight -  and i can 


well it's all systems GO  now !!!!  
 
i am free from the cancer industry  !!!    

if i was under their  "care" , i'd be  re-tested in a few months,, and  on a side  by side comparison,,  my treatment has been much better than what they offered....  i am so glad i walked away from them


ok, that's it for today ,, a big relief. 


report 
attitude     ...............   good
weight      ...............    154
tumor      ................     invisible
strength    ...............    A +
pain         ................     1.2     Zuzu's  leash / hand
overall     ...............     9.4

3 days went by quick

ooops ,,  sunday was my last post,,  i had cancer funk brain for a couple days....   i had a CT scan scheduled , for dec 12th, yesterday,   but didn't  do it...   i had it scheduled for my Dad,, he wanted me to  "get tested to see if it spread" ... the test is poison, so  no test for me.. now i have to tell him,  dang..

i can gain weight if i want to ,,  that's a good thing for  a cancer  victim ,, i am 154 this week,,  this is the most i've weighed for a while .. some of it might be muscle mass, the weights are starting to show more

i'm working 5 or 6 shifts a week , which is nice, but i liked not working at all ,, in june , july and august , much better ..  i have a few december comedy gigs, so that's  nice too...   i feel better now that i'm  able to get my bills paid .. yay 

back to the cancer...  to me ,, i feel like it 's ( cancer ) done  on me,,  the lump on my neck is scar tissue, it's not getting worse.the grapefruit  did NOT appear .....  my tonsils have not had any problems,  they look the same as they did ,  with no growths, or voice change..     i feel great ,,  last week would have been may last week of Chemo, if i had signed up for that .. they would want to "re-test" me in a few months.. i was told i'd be very close to death, so they could treat me..                   

 i currently am super -ALIVE ..  i just have to keep the funk out of my head..

i weenied -out, chickened out , retreated, backed into a corner, the last coupled of  days..  what a  wuss.. 
i felt weak about  the test / cancel / telling my dad. 

i have to keep focused on all the positive stuff happening, so i apologize  for  the absence .. 

current report

weight     ............... 154
attitude   ................ chicken
strength    .............. real good 
pain      ...................  .01
tumor   ...................  dead
overall ................... 8.3   

 

161 days -- pretty amazing

i started doing this .........http://healthfree.com/incurables_program_hydrotherapy.html

oh my , how it has energized my system..

after the first one i was giggling all day, i felt  so good,,   

when i started with the weights, i did  5 presses 5 curls,   3 times each,,,  160 days  later ,,   50 presses, 35 curls ,, 3 times  each,,,,, i do this while in the neck traction device,, 10 # dumbells,, just takes a few minutes,, 

the  bike peddling is the best thing,, gets the blood flowing, and good breathing,,, more  oxygen ..  


here is a neck pic,, it's been a while since i  posted one..

                1/2 inch above my finger tip.. it's hard to see, you have to touch it to find it...

when it was giant,, it was  from my ear lobe to where my finger is, and all that  space above, wider than my jaw line...

here's  something .......http://www.rawforbeauty.com/blog/477-qi-beat-cancer-with-a-raw-diet-and-holistic-lifestyleq.html


i did the right thing , i am going to , well to me , i already am , a -ok ,  cancer conqueror ...


it is messing with the wrong  guy