you're probably wondering ,, why i haven't blogged for months .. well, nothing really changed, and just living life was taking up most of my time. and it takes a decent amount of time to write a blog that can be read in just minutes. so yeah,, i got lazy about it
it's been since January,, here's what you missed..
like you i was frozen in Indy for months, it was too cold to go anywhere, and just a bummer for too long
on Jan 20th, my poisonous mind sent my tumor back to active.. i was approaching the 18th month mark - Feb - , and i couldn't stop thinking about cancer. then i saw - "you are what you think" .. and my tumor twitched and dang,, i said to my self,, "you just re-fired your cancer"
my mind wouldn't shut off.. and soon enough , the tumor was starting to grow... i had a cancer talk scheduled in May, i was supposed to "tell my story" about healing myself , and now my neck was active.. i waited 2 weeks to see where it was going, and decided to cancel the May speech , i was stressing out big time, thinking , " i have to make this go away NOW ! , you have a date in 3 months" ...
Mid month, i was consumed by cancer take over thoughts.. they wouldn't shut off, and the tumor was still getting bigger.. and my nut cysts started to act up too,, so i scheduled some doctor appointments
1 . regular doc - physical + blood work.. i still feel great , but wanted to make sure it was true
2. eye doctor. my eyes hurt and i thought i had tumors in my skull, pushing my eyes out of my head
3. dentist .. i have a new bump on my inner jaw bone, and was like "great - now you have jaw bone cancer too". i thought many of my teeth were loose, with cancer under them.
4. Urologist,, the old tiny cysts are becoming uncomfortable , and i wanted to make sure it wasn't testicular cancer
5. E N T . small growth by tonsil, my tumor is still growing, i'm stressing out , knowing what this guy is probably going to say.
the results ...
#1.. super healthy, blood work perfect, all organs good, NO issues, better than in december of 2012 WHEW !!!
#2. no tumors in skull !! ,no issues,, eye prescription changed a little ~ i have quite an imagination
#3 . bump is a "tomma" common bone growth, no big deal,, NO jaw cancer... teeth are not loose,,the skin on my finger was what wiggled, NO cancer under teeth.!! all normal ,, sweet !!
3 down 2 to go
#4. same type of cysts as last time, can have removed "whenever",, NOT cancer... ta daaaaaaaa
#5. as expected, cancer, same place , same cancer as before.. doctor recommends , major tonsil-ectomy , remove neck tumor, ( 4 cm !! at the time of visit , that's huge ) ,, and remove 7 lymph nodes.. he also wants me to have a new CT scan and a new PET scan, before the operation.
i told him i needed to think it over..this was april 2nd
so i've been back in battle cancer mode and didn't want to start blogging about it until i chilled out , and got my shit together..
last time i blogged without thinking , and said some crap i shouldn't have. So this round I will be more positive.
so i "have cancer" again, but this time i have so much data for success, and have learned much more. Again, i am going to make it go away.
please don't be bummed out , this should have been expected. My body has not been damaged at all during my adventure , only made MUCH stronger.. my MIND screwed it up..
send good vibes again!!
so get ready for more blogs.
i have some stuff on my mind again
it's down to 3.1 cm , it changes shape almost daily,
feels like a bee is stinging it when the protocols take effect