i had a blast on stage thursday night. really fun, although it was a smoking venue - eeeeeeeeek - but they let me go up first , so i could get out of there . almost wanted to burn the clothes..
s t i n k y !!
my "fire " about being alive feels wonderful.. people who see me once in a while are commenting on how much better i look - each time !!
the energy and nice feeling from a packed house is just fantastic..tonight in Metamora , sold out , SRO , wonderful group of people.. the tumor took a beating from the laughs & applause ..
i'm pretty fried so this might be short & jumbled in thought.
here is Zuzu making a seat out of Bella
Bella Zuzu
clearly a "seat "
Bella is thinking,,, get this little crazy train off me ........
Zuzu is thinking ,, what ?? i'm not doing nothing
Bella is so nice , she weighs 45 , and Zuzu weighs 27.. they are equal in strength.. Zuzu is crazy as hell, Bella is calm and relaxed.
they get along wonderfully .. they snuggle up on each side of me , i feel so loved
well that's it for tonight
no supreme words of wisdom today..
although Mr Fong told me once,,, "yu want gud week, buy 10 fortune cookies - keep the best 7"
and i'm feeling even better than last week,, this is great , i'm not sure how good i will feel in 3 weeks , but it's gonna be on the fantastic scale... like fantastic 3.4
i had to kind of go "budget" on the last 6 days of food,, not as much leafy greens , and fresh veggies as i wanted.. we had lots of beans & quinoa ... beans are inexpensive and good for me , i cook 2 cup batches ( 4 days worth of yield) , and season each batch differently. NO "boring" food around here !!... our garden is still producing leaf lettuce in large amounts, so it's back on for the greens !!!
today's catch ...... just picked leaf lettuce, carmelized sweet onions, carrots, cilantro, hot yellow potatoes, cucumbers, cherry tomatoes . hemp oil for dressing, on a 14 inch plate ......... a ( big salad)
more good vibes keep flowing my way , so i must thank you all for reading my rants, and staying on my positive team..
i've had a few thoughts about , "what if" i kept this whole deal private, and i'm certain that i would not be healing as well on my own .. by that i mean , without all the love i'm getting , and positive energies from you all .. we are still "on our own" ~ doctor wise.. they are waiting on the sidelines, and they aren't gonna get play in this game ..
compared to july / august , when i was pretty much collapsing , my life is 98% back on track / normal .. my "earth job" ( the job that pays most of my bills ) is better than it was before i retired.. apparently - i did more than i thought - when i was working, and they chopped up all those duties between many people. So now i get to "manage" and help in all areas, instead of being "locked" in one area... plus,,,,,, way less stress than before...
Special thanks to my friendly comedian friends, they are booking me in their shows . i really like having at least
14 or more shows a month.. the stage energy is very healing.. "with every laugh - a cancer cell dies" - is working out nicely,, and that's 14 nights that i'm not home being the "cancer-guy"
my hand and arm pains are not even thought about anymore. my neck has full mobility, it still crunches and creaks, but it doesn't hurt,, my lower back , L-3, ruptured in 1985, that pain is not around either.. now,, the pain in my ass....... ME ......or,,, my brain, my constant battle to keep thinking correctly - is a daily / hourly deal... i must remember , RIGHT across ,or "next to", any bad thoughts / ideas , is a fantastic memory that has easy access .
i like cleaning stuff,, it's a good activity for me , instant results, and there's always MORE to do.. after cleaning, i don't feel guilty about playing guitar for hours - which is very important- i've gotta keep my hands in shape & keep writing new stuff, when the comedy brain isn't producing "gold" ,,or even mediocre crap.......
i had a sleepy day in the sun with the dogs,, just having them next to me is a wonderful feeling,, nice and warm, they are happy all the time, and that soaks into me . the Humor factor they produce is also really great.. Zuzu , the little one, likes to SIT ON Bella,, on her face , neck, legs, body , it doesn't matter where they are , Zuzu is on top of Bella,, like the small fish that clings onto a big shark, they are always together .. it's a dang love fest around here!!
well ok, that was all useless info, but that's how i feel today , and you got to read about it.......
health report
weight 148.4 the beans put a few #'s on
tumor size "holding" at very small
attitude really good
strength ever improving
overall 9.4
i'm booked on December 21st,, 2012 if the world DOES end, i'll be on stage, laughing about it
"generally speaking" ,, MANY / most - stage 4 cancer patients, die within 18 months,, with "treatment" or without.. that is a statistical fact.. and with "treatment" , many of those 18 months are not the best "quality of life" ..
i'm 5 months after diagnosis,, i feel really good, my body is intact, i'm not suffering from my cancer battle physically ,, mentally - yes, but i've got a good handle on that now..
i'm doing the Gerson Therapy,, 70 years of proven success .
with food & vitamins, if it takes up to 2 years to become "cancer free" , and i get to feel like this the whole time- ,, well,,, winner winner - chicken dinner ,,, that's 24 months of feeling great, compared to a hopeful 18 months , with the bad side effects starting immediately , when traditional treatment starts,,
to me , i still think i am WAY ahead , and i'm quite happy about it
i feel good , and i'm HAPPY about my treatment,, not bad for a cancer patient............
two thumbs up , hell yeaaah !! fantastico , wunderbar,, top shelf, that's how i feel about this whole deal now,, i'm strong , confident, and ready to take on anything..
my passion for life "meter" is pegged .. i want to live long time, smiling, joking, and playing music...
not too much can get me down now,,, cancer - schmantzer .. what else you got ,,, traffic troubles?, line too long at the grocery?, cell phone dropped in the toilet?, guitar string breaks? dog chewed up your schedule book? ,,
"it's all in yo head" - that madness,
if anyone asks------------ i'm feeling great ,, pass it on
i've been back to work now for 6 weeks , it feels nice .
no stress from "where's the $$ gonna come from".. i was even able to get a couple extra shifts this week
i've got 12 more shows this month , and so far, 9 for december, so my "life" seems to be closer to back to normal.
well as normal as i can be now ,, 2 jobs , like before, + cancer
i used to really dislike reading , but i've had to make myself read LOTS of stuff. it's all been very helpful , lots of cancer books.
i still am fully confident in my treatment,, i'm able to suppress the "what if's " easier now
still feeling really good,, stress level super low, strength - better each week , attitude on a good upswing
my mustache is coming in , for the MoVember Cancer awareness program.. i just got rid of that stinking Go-Tee in october, and was enjoying the clean face again..
i had a bit of bread that i made, to gain a pound or two this week, along with bumping up the quantity of my regular anti-cancer foods.. .. the results are in, + 3 lbs, but i don't feel as "pure" , knowing the bread got in me... so no more bread.. even if i make it.
i have nothing to complain about now , i was quite the bitch the last few months... well, i'm thinking smarter, i feel better , i know my correct foods diet can not be altered at all..
this nice weather was really a boost of goodness.. sunny AND warm , mid november,, just fantastic
alright , that's it for today .. oops,, one more thing
here's an example of that # code ,
for organic vegetables ,
they start with a 9
happy eating !!!
