bad thinking

i must confess i was  bummed out yesterday / today ,,    about  not having a day job,,  how  stupid am i ??   i'm "beating cancer"  and i'm bummed out about $$  .. whata  dumbass.

i've  been  debt free  for years,, so  owing anyone any  $$  is  a drag... and  again ,, whata  dumbass...   
  some  people  are  $20,000 deep , or  more ,, and  i'm freaking  out about not too much at all,     

  i have  the hard worker  gene , from my family,, so not  working, and ending up , just a bit in debt , is  grating my DNA...   and again,, whata dumbass......   the  day job i've  been waiting on called , and i can get some time starting wednesday .. yay !!!

well.. now i feel better ..  i've  just been thinking of the wrong stuff..  whata  dumbass 




snap out of it  otto !!!

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