i like to do shows at church events, i can be my clean wacky self, and introduce my sobriety years, and they love me ... and then i get lots of hugs after the show too.
i ate very much more food yesterday , and weighed 156 today ..
there are some people tracking the photo time line ,, here's today's
i hope i don't get squished , like the electric car,, when my story gets out...
and the font thing changed by itself , i'm not trying to be stylish
here is the pic right after getting home from the biopsy..
carrots before ..
and after the juicer ............
instant yummy & energy
have a super sunny day !!
Saturday, September 15, 2012
Friday, September 14, 2012
i'm just a speck
i want to make sure that i am NOT making anyone mad about "my" out look about my cancer. i can only write about the feelings i have .. i am a daredevil,, i 'walked-away" from treatment ,, be careful of what i say. my influence must be researched ,
my rule.. if it doesn't grow out of the ground ,, i am not putting it in my body ,, ,, so you figure out how to deal with information that sounds "too good to be true"..
my tumor ,, it's what got me into the doctor's office in the first place,, is what i use as a reference point.. it changes shape daily,, it is somewhat "soft" now,, it's the size of a "smartie" or a pez,, it was bigger than a 25 cent gumball, on july 25th .. my tonsils,,, "that were supposed to come out " , are still fine...
if you don't know that i "have cancer" , you can not see the tumor.. no freaking way the radiation would have had it this small, with no side effects... no side effects, one more time ,,,, no side effects
i want to see the piece of paper that has the data that determined that i have cancer,,, it has to be some numbers , or photographs, that a human being, decides that ,, yep , these #'s, or Pic's = Cancer..
i also want that person's name ..
.. that little transfer of information really screwed my life around,, and could have REALLY had me in a world of shit if i was "doing treatment" .. i bet that person was eating lunch when they looked at it, and said .. oh yeah , this one's cancer
i try to keep this kinda funny ,, but sometimes the frustration spikes go to the moon alice..
i have feelings back in my hand again , from the brake job the other day ,,, whew, i thought it was ruined forever
when i was in pain with my broken neck,, i drew millions of pictures,, the pain would stay on the paper,, my blog is helping like that
here's a drawing of my tumor progress
the C is the cancer .
. and here's how mad i was when the pet scan blew my tumor up .................
july 24th
now ,,, ( sept 12th) ,, you seriously have to "look for it " to see it ...
ok a happy thought.. my guitar works great!!!,, i fixed up a gee-tar how i wanted it , and it works fantastic.. ha ha
i will post some broken neck drawings soon ,, not for kids
here's one of my drawings,, colored by my best!!!!!! friend
ok- now that's a happy ending to today's blog
my rule.. if it doesn't grow out of the ground ,, i am not putting it in my body ,, ,, so you figure out how to deal with information that sounds "too good to be true"..
my tumor ,, it's what got me into the doctor's office in the first place,, is what i use as a reference point.. it changes shape daily,, it is somewhat "soft" now,, it's the size of a "smartie" or a pez,, it was bigger than a 25 cent gumball, on july 25th .. my tonsils,,, "that were supposed to come out " , are still fine...
if you don't know that i "have cancer" , you can not see the tumor.. no freaking way the radiation would have had it this small, with no side effects... no side effects, one more time ,,,, no side effects
i want to see the piece of paper that has the data that determined that i have cancer,,, it has to be some numbers , or photographs, that a human being, decides that ,, yep , these #'s, or Pic's = Cancer..
i also want that person's name ..
.. that little transfer of information really screwed my life around,, and could have REALLY had me in a world of shit if i was "doing treatment" .. i bet that person was eating lunch when they looked at it, and said .. oh yeah , this one's cancer
i try to keep this kinda funny ,, but sometimes the frustration spikes go to the moon alice..
i have feelings back in my hand again , from the brake job the other day ,,, whew, i thought it was ruined forever
when i was in pain with my broken neck,, i drew millions of pictures,, the pain would stay on the paper,, my blog is helping like that
here's a drawing of my tumor progress
the C is the cancer .
. and here's how mad i was when the pet scan blew my tumor up .................
july 24th
now ,,, ( sept 12th) ,, you seriously have to "look for it " to see it ...
ok a happy thought.. my guitar works great!!!,, i fixed up a gee-tar how i wanted it , and it works fantastic.. ha ha
i will post some broken neck drawings soon ,, not for kids
here's one of my drawings,, colored by my best!!!!!! friend
ok- now that's a happy ending to today's blog
Thursday, September 13, 2012
24 hours missing
i sure wish this was over,,, and even when it is , the food & lifestyle change will stay,, i just want the "cancer" word out of my system..
i used to work 30 to 50 hours at my day job,, and then the comedy shows on top of that,, i don't get bored,, but i sure would like some "day work" ,, and now that i know "treatment" will not be in the way of a day job,, i need to score one.. the organic food is about $25 - 30 a day
i should have nothing to bitch at ,, i feel great , my progress is better that anyone could have imagined .. i'm just like anyone now,, low on funds ...
cleaning the house doesn't cost me anything .. i can do that today !!
ok !!! thanks for the support
i used to work 30 to 50 hours at my day job,, and then the comedy shows on top of that,, i don't get bored,, but i sure would like some "day work" ,, and now that i know "treatment" will not be in the way of a day job,, i need to score one.. the organic food is about $25 - 30 a day
i should have nothing to bitch at ,, i feel great , my progress is better that anyone could have imagined .. i'm just like anyone now,, low on funds ...
cleaning the house doesn't cost me anything .. i can do that today !!
ok !!! thanks for the support
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
white feet the indian
i've been relaxing in the sun ,, in 30 minute segments,, no sunscreen , but my feet never get any.. i always have socks on ....the sun gives you a VERY high dose of vitamin D3,, for free.. cancer don't like no D3... so here they are ,,
my white feet ...
crazy,, my legs are THAT tan,, my butt is super white too , but no one's seeing that
i'm feeling good,, ,,, did ALL my exercises today .. just have to bike later
my white feet ...
crazy,, my legs are THAT tan,, my butt is super white too , but no one's seeing that
i'm feeling good,, ,,, did ALL my exercises today .. just have to bike later
Monday, September 10, 2012
from late sunday night/ early monday am
my friend who passed away from his battle,,,, told me to keep the blog truthful, and don't hold back, or try to dress anything up ..
my dad called today and asked how it was going.. i said , you can barely see the tumor,,, he was like "what , no way" ,, yep almost gone.. then he asked how i was feeling ,, "fantastic !!"
that was a great call ,, i felt super happy hearing him say , "so what you're doing is working ?" yes it is .............
i would have been 4 weeks into radiation, ,, i think if i was being radiated that conversation would have been way different.. maybe not ,,....
some one out there might be thinking,, this guy keeps talking about 'that tumor' ,,, when the tumor is NOT the "primary " cancer,, well yes that is correct,, but they were going to radiate the tumor in hopes to shrink it,, and cut my tonsils out, because they "MIGHT" have been the primary.. the doctor said his goal was to make the tumor smaller , get the cancer out.. i agree with that,,
my brother in law saw me yesterday, he said "where did it go?" ,, so i point to it,, right here ,, he said , " it was like a golfball,, just weeks ago !! ""
ok .......... enough tumor talk.........................
i had 4 days under 150 , last week .... 147.5 was the lowest ... that's why i took that pic at 150 ,, for a good reference ... when i was 18 in super shape i weighed 149...
i have lost much of my body fat ,, at this weight , i'm at 9%... this week i'm going to add more food , and get back on the bike, everyday ... all the weight i've lost was the crappy stuff i used to eat,,
lots of bagels, coffee, yogurt, apple sauce, rice, pasta , pizza , bread,, red bull. ice cream,,, .. i just need to force down more of this good stuff,, get up to 153 ..
i left a comedy show tonight,, i knew it was going to be a disaster ,, the first night of the NFL ,, chaaaaaaaaa,, and then read some douchebag at the bar , called the "owner" , who called the place , and had the comedy shut down , so douchey could hear the game ... and it was a smoking place , so i didn't need that air anyway ..
today was really nice , in many ways
another nice moment was knowing my dad was going to say to his wife,,, "he said the tumor is almost gone !!" and for the next 30 minutes , they'd be very happy about that
this is Esperanza,
super happy in the river, the year before she had to wear her supports
my dad called today and asked how it was going.. i said , you can barely see the tumor,,, he was like "what , no way" ,, yep almost gone.. then he asked how i was feeling ,, "fantastic !!"
that was a great call ,, i felt super happy hearing him say , "so what you're doing is working ?" yes it is .............
i would have been 4 weeks into radiation, ,, i think if i was being radiated that conversation would have been way different.. maybe not ,,....
some one out there might be thinking,, this guy keeps talking about 'that tumor' ,,, when the tumor is NOT the "primary " cancer,, well yes that is correct,, but they were going to radiate the tumor in hopes to shrink it,, and cut my tonsils out, because they "MIGHT" have been the primary.. the doctor said his goal was to make the tumor smaller , get the cancer out.. i agree with that,,
my brother in law saw me yesterday, he said "where did it go?" ,, so i point to it,, right here ,, he said , " it was like a golfball,, just weeks ago !! ""
ok .......... enough tumor talk.........................
i had 4 days under 150 , last week .... 147.5 was the lowest ... that's why i took that pic at 150 ,, for a good reference ... when i was 18 in super shape i weighed 149...
i have lost much of my body fat ,, at this weight , i'm at 9%... this week i'm going to add more food , and get back on the bike, everyday ... all the weight i've lost was the crappy stuff i used to eat,,
lots of bagels, coffee, yogurt, apple sauce, rice, pasta , pizza , bread,, red bull. ice cream,,, .. i just need to force down more of this good stuff,, get up to 153 ..
i left a comedy show tonight,, i knew it was going to be a disaster ,, the first night of the NFL ,, chaaaaaaaaa,, and then read some douchebag at the bar , called the "owner" , who called the place , and had the comedy shut down , so douchey could hear the game ... and it was a smoking place , so i didn't need that air anyway ..
today was really nice , in many ways
another nice moment was knowing my dad was going to say to his wife,,, "he said the tumor is almost gone !!" and for the next 30 minutes , they'd be very happy about that
this is Esperanza,
super happy in the river, the year before she had to wear her supports
we'd go everyday , until it was too cold,,
she chased rocks, and the splash they made ,,
ok that's today's
Sunday, September 9, 2012
missed saturday
it was so nice i stayed outside as much as possible saturday,, and ended up not posting my blog..
still doing great
5 ' 10" 150 lbs
still doing great
5 ' 10" 150 lbs
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