10 months since diagnosis , and what have i learned.....
positive energy is the key to recovery / healing
what you think, you become
some things you can't do alone
my body is stronger than my mind
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now some blabbin'
physically , the last 10 months have been great . i only put good stuff inside me , exercised and stretched . i feel way better than i ever have , and i'm in no pain... not bad for a kid my age.
mentally , what a nightmare. all self induced.. 10 months ago i was freakin out big time. not because i thought i was gonna die, i thought i was going to be in a lot of pain. cancer spreads , your body hurts, i didn't want any of that.
so my mind trip , you couldn't see it on me. i did turn orange from the foods & the sun, other than that , i looked better quickly. i used the blog to unleash my emotions . if i tried to keep all that crap inside , or to my self , i surely would have crumbled into a poison soaked mess. and you got to read all about it
the roller coaster cancer puts you on is terrifying .. the clinky , ca-chunk of that slow uphill.. that's like seeing the doctors and doing research. then the pause at the top,, . and release.....
what's gonna happen ????... and i chose the "no seat-bar" car , so to speak. and yes, the first hill , scary as hell.. each dip and hill , loop , and tight turn was another month gone, and i felt better, less scared . . now , it's May ,, i feel like the coaster is slowing down to stop. i've got my hands up , a big smile on my face.. almost thinking - that was fun....... i'm gonna get off this scary ride, and enjoy the rest of the park... but i do have that snapshot of my face on that first hill, it's not laughing.....
what's bad about the coaster slowing to a stop , is , that a whole new load of people are going to get on.
this ride should have been closed 50 years ago.................
and here's my new haircut..
i will have gray side walls now
ok , thanks for playing along
may 1st .. my sister Mary passed away in 2010. i wrote about her before , it was her birthday in october. She had lung cancer . I would have to guess that when my family heard i had cancer , they thought i was doomed.
i gave myself a nice summer haircut today. my hair is almost impossible to mess up.. i can adjust it in a few days.
last May 1st i was 30 days from retiring, starting the stress nightmare that triggered my cancer. today i was out in the yard in the sun with the dogs. i am expecting to start turning orange again soon , maybe not as bad as last year, now that i'm 10 months into juicing
my recent mind boggling battle is about comedy, i " got out of line " so to speak, and had to stay home to beat cancer.. so i'm out of the loop. hence not too many shows booked as of today, bummer
i do really enjoy being home , it's really nice here.
the dogs are constant entertainment. although i am the ""asshole with 2 pit-bulls"" when we go walking. i can feel the vibe from some of the people looking out their windows. sometimes Bella & Zuzu start fighting each other on the walk, when they get crazy about another dog... then i know i can feel people thinking ---- -- { great- there's douchy with the 2 dogs , and NOW they are fighting } oh boy
tomorrow is 10 months since diagnosis.. what a ride it's been ,,
no fears.. it's a cake walk now
my Vegas trip ..............
my wonderful sister set me up with tickets on Southwest. i had not flown since 1998, and was expecting a horrible experience with the TSA.. i had my food , and my merch ( magnets & lug nuts with wires stuck in them, and DVDs ) , and some clothes. they opened it up in Indy , and looked a bit , and it was ok to go. my guitar was "checked " and went into the underbelly.. i took the old black one, just in case............ i brought some hemp/flax/seed granola with raisins, 6 bananas, and 2 avocados , for 30 hours , and my vitamins. i chugged a big 'ole jar of carrot juice , right before i walked into the airport..
bottle of water $ 2.56
the plane was packed, but it was pleasant , 4 hours , and i slept some ..
landing is always a good thing .. yay ..
they broke my guitar case in one spot ,, and they did open it also , so good thing i had old Blackie in there.. the wasburn might have been another story.
free shuttle to the Hilton Gardens. $ 2 tip . 85 and sunny !!! palm trees everywhere , super cool .. not close to "the Strip" , but just across the street from the venue.. my Vegas contact Matt , was a brain injury survivor, i will blog about his story another time, it is unbelievable . He was so inspiring,, the minute i started talking to him. we hung out till show time.
Deborah, the show organizer was another amazing person . I'm so lucky to have met the people involved with the show.
they truely were survivors,, i felt like a puss,, all i did , actually since July, was eat vegetables . and complain
The Copa Room ,, super swanky, and the event was powerfully positive. more than fantastic.
after the show we chatted more, their stories were mind-blowing
went to bed, got up at 9,, had my last avocado, one banana and some granola.. ..
talked to Matt a bit more , and caught the shuttle back to the airport at 10 am $ 2 tip
breezed right through TSA in Vegas, kinda empty plane, left Vegas at 12:45 , and landed in Indy at 7 :20
they broke the guitar case , again, in another spot.. damn..
trip review - wonderful .. erased my "fear" of the flying experience, and being away from my Juicer & home.
spent $ 6 .56
to make wonderful better . yes that's right , to make the trip even more fantastic - an old friend who i had not seen or talked with for may years was in Indy , near the airport, with 2 other old friends, and they picked me up .. we got to visit for a few hours
when he called and we knew we could meet up, i said i had something that might kinda blow their minds...
minds blown ...indeed..
before i said anything about my deal, i asked them , how do i look ?? ...... besides the small amount of gray hair - almost exactly the same. it's been 14 years
we took a group photo, i told them , in the future ,, when you look at this , if i start to fade out of it,, call me , and i'll eat some broccoli real quick.
my life is so much better than compared to last April / may.
the diet has helped ,, but it's the loving people who have carried me along , is what has really fixed me.
health report
attitude . new - recharged
pain . .oo1
strength top notch
overall 9.5
i craved the carrot juice , and the vegetables , even just for those 30 hours.. yesterday - drank a big jug , and had this fruit lunch today .. feeling like a Top Fuel Dragster
one apple - THE WHOLE thing - yes the core and SEEDS
one banana
one cup of fresh pineapple
cilantro
try the cilantro on some fruit .. it's good for you , and you'll go
hmmmmmmm that's pretty good
