things are getting better , short post today, been in the nice weather with the dogs.. Zuzu is now jumping so she can see OVER the top of the fence.. when she arrived she was a pudgy little dough-ball, with big boobs.. now she looks like a chawowwa that has gone all "stewie griffen " in the gym.
higher than this fence.. eek
that's a 6 foot leap
and today's tumor photo
that's it for today ...
keep it real, love what you feel
Saturday, November 10, 2012
Thursday, November 8, 2012
a relaxing exercise
every time i perform , i have some kind of goal, or something specific i am testing............
in my effort to stay away from stress, and calm down, i hitched a ride to a comedy show last night.. a FIRST !!! ( i'm doing new things ) --- . i always drive myself, so i know there will be no modifications to my plan / trip. i like being in my car by myself,, it's my own little universe, otto-ville... normally i HATE being a passenger but - last night it was OK.. we got home a bit later than i thought , but no problem,, no wear & tear on my car , and i gave $5 for gas, it's all good........
i also did another "first" , something i thought i'd NEVER do .. i wore jeans on stage .. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah , no way!! , yes way..
to me , if people pay to get in, then who ever is on stage should be dressed nicely .. put some effort into looking like you were planning to entertain people.. show - biz respect.. i've always worn black slacks, nice socks, proper shoes, and fancy shirts or an impressive "racing jacket" ... (( 2 people wanted to buy last night's jacket )) it's my "comedy suit" like a fire-proof suit racers wear.. when i'm in that, it's all business,, you can catch on "fire", or even get "murdered" on stage,, and you can "bomb" too , and ruin it for everyone, so you better have the propper attire, you hope to "kill" , but that leaves no mess
so, in my LESS stress otto plan ,, as i was getting ready last night , i said,, try jeans tonight, "no one" cares, and just be relaxed & funny ,, it was a college show,,,,,,,, i figured some or most of the other comics would be dressed "as they were" , and i'd still look sharp & professional, with my hair done up, and a nice white STP jacket, on top of the jeans.. by NOT having my "show-biz" slacks on at 7 pm,, i was able to relax , like a guy with jeans on,, until moments before my set, ( @ 10:35), that was a new feeling too... normally i'm tweaked about being on stage as soon as i "gear up",, but last night i was Cpt. Chill,, it was very different.
it was also a "contest" last night,, i usually don't "do well" in contest situation.. auditions - yes !! contest - not so much -- i like doing a 30 minutes set , where people can fall in love with me , it's paced, and it all fits together , contest's are like - do yer funniest stuff- quick !!! and the crowd is all judge mental about "funnier than that",, or someone brings 50 people, and they do the ' 3 monkeys ' for all the other performers... bla bla bla..
so last night , 3 minutes before i was to perform , that's when i put the guitar on, & lost my pick , (- broke a cardboard beer coaster to replace it ), didn't freak out ,,,, got ready and ..........destroyed the place.. i had a blast ,, more than just " did my set" , actually had fun with the kids there , as it was happening ,, and ,,,,,,,, another MIRACLE !!!! i moved forward in the contest .. the possibility of moving forward was very good,, i'm pretty much a veteran , 10 + years, against some Nu-bee's,, but you never know.. so last night was a nice extra smile for me
my "goal" last night ,,
be a clam passenger ** check !...
relax and don't stress over the Jeans ** check!!,
have fun ON stage ** check !!!
get home safe ** check !!
a "side bonus" , was to move forward in the contest. ** check !!!
this might not seem too cool to you , but for me , wow !!!!!! very uplifting experience...
so far this new month has been superpositive and on track.
the LESS STRESS program is working,, chill ~~~otto , breathe, think correctly. s t r e t c h o u t , eat enough, smile more,, spread happiness
attitude ------- wonderful
weight ------- 146.8
pain --------- let's say zero.. got to the chiro today
tumor ------- still there, the little bastard
cardio ------ improving , been back on the bike
overall ........ 9.3
i'm having 5 or 6 meals of this size daily ..this is "my bowl"
happy eating everybody !!!!!!!! .........
japanese sweet potatoes , tomatoes, cucumbers , cilantro, avocado . tiny amount of fresh Habanero peppers
in my effort to stay away from stress, and calm down, i hitched a ride to a comedy show last night.. a FIRST !!! ( i'm doing new things ) --- . i always drive myself, so i know there will be no modifications to my plan / trip. i like being in my car by myself,, it's my own little universe, otto-ville... normally i HATE being a passenger but - last night it was OK.. we got home a bit later than i thought , but no problem,, no wear & tear on my car , and i gave $5 for gas, it's all good........
i also did another "first" , something i thought i'd NEVER do .. i wore jeans on stage .. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah , no way!! , yes way..
to me , if people pay to get in, then who ever is on stage should be dressed nicely .. put some effort into looking like you were planning to entertain people.. show - biz respect.. i've always worn black slacks, nice socks, proper shoes, and fancy shirts or an impressive "racing jacket" ... (( 2 people wanted to buy last night's jacket )) it's my "comedy suit" like a fire-proof suit racers wear.. when i'm in that, it's all business,, you can catch on "fire", or even get "murdered" on stage,, and you can "bomb" too , and ruin it for everyone, so you better have the propper attire, you hope to "kill" , but that leaves no mess
so, in my LESS stress otto plan ,, as i was getting ready last night , i said,, try jeans tonight, "no one" cares, and just be relaxed & funny ,, it was a college show,,,,,,,, i figured some or most of the other comics would be dressed "as they were" , and i'd still look sharp & professional, with my hair done up, and a nice white STP jacket, on top of the jeans.. by NOT having my "show-biz" slacks on at 7 pm,, i was able to relax , like a guy with jeans on,, until moments before my set, ( @ 10:35), that was a new feeling too... normally i'm tweaked about being on stage as soon as i "gear up",, but last night i was Cpt. Chill,, it was very different.
it was also a "contest" last night,, i usually don't "do well" in contest situation.. auditions - yes !! contest - not so much -- i like doing a 30 minutes set , where people can fall in love with me , it's paced, and it all fits together , contest's are like - do yer funniest stuff- quick !!! and the crowd is all judge mental about "funnier than that",, or someone brings 50 people, and they do the ' 3 monkeys ' for all the other performers... bla bla bla..
so last night , 3 minutes before i was to perform , that's when i put the guitar on, & lost my pick , (- broke a cardboard beer coaster to replace it ), didn't freak out ,,,, got ready and ..........destroyed the place.. i had a blast ,, more than just " did my set" , actually had fun with the kids there , as it was happening ,, and ,,,,,,,, another MIRACLE !!!! i moved forward in the contest .. the possibility of moving forward was very good,, i'm pretty much a veteran , 10 + years, against some Nu-bee's,, but you never know.. so last night was a nice extra smile for me
my "goal" last night ,,
be a clam passenger ** check !...
relax and don't stress over the Jeans ** check!!,
have fun ON stage ** check !!!
get home safe ** check !!
a "side bonus" , was to move forward in the contest. ** check !!!
this might not seem too cool to you , but for me , wow !!!!!! very uplifting experience...
so far this new month has been superpositive and on track.
the LESS STRESS program is working,, chill ~~~otto , breathe, think correctly. s t r e t c h o u t , eat enough, smile more,, spread happiness
attitude ------- wonderful
weight ------- 146.8
pain --------- let's say zero.. got to the chiro today
tumor ------- still there, the little bastard
cardio ------ improving , been back on the bike
overall ........ 9.3
i'm having 5 or 6 meals of this size daily ..this is "my bowl"
happy eating everybody !!!!!!!! .........
japanese sweet potatoes , tomatoes, cucumbers , cilantro, avocado . tiny amount of fresh Habanero peppers
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
ya got 14 seconds ??
thank you !!!!! my secret Pogues Run angels,
i went in today , and they said someone loaded another card.. wow o wow
i'm so blessed to have you nice people out there helping me
talked with another cancer survivor today, amazing !!
fantastic day, every thing is wonderful
this month has been already a real nice uplifting change compared to the past few
alright, i'll have more tomorrow
i went in today , and they said someone loaded another card.. wow o wow
i'm so blessed to have you nice people out there helping me
talked with another cancer survivor today, amazing !!
fantastic day, every thing is wonderful
this month has been already a real nice uplifting change compared to the past few
alright, i'll have more tomorrow
Monday, November 5, 2012
early christmas
i went to Pogues Run today , and there was another GIFT CARD miracle !!!
THANK YOU !!!!!! whoever you are , i walked in with some wrinkly dollars and a baggie of change,, carefully pricing as i went ,,, and then -- "otto you have a another gift card here" shazaam !!! i got 2 extra apples and another tomato , some quinoa, and had to hold back my happy crying ...
i am receiving so many good vibes and buckets of love !! i had a blog planned for today , but i'll write it for tommorrow,, today's gift has overwhelmed me in a very good way..
i'm a few paychecks away from getting most of my debt paid... and as i typed that sentence , the cancer payment people called,,, i missed my october , but i'm ok to pay in two weeks.. whew ... the lady was very nice,, i guess having cancer gets you a small amount of lee-way ,,, i've had bill collectors call , many years ago , and those people were NASTY !!!
health report ::
how do i feel -- super great
weight -- 144.8
attitude -- fantastic
strength -- very good, getting "ripped" & "cut"
tumor -- smallest ever, hard to photograph
overall score -- 9.2
sunny days are great , i just wish it was warmer,, 28 this morning let me know winter is on the way ,, and the dogs are gonna be inside more,, and the wrestling matches they have are almost WWE worthy... they grab each others faces and tug away ,, it's crazy , that they haven't pooped out their eyes yet.. Zuzu is now able to jump to the top of the fence, 6ft., once she learns to grab the top, she's going over like Johnny Rotten... we'll have to put a net up.. Bella just sits there and watches her crazy room-mate spaz out over the squirrels.
ok much love everybody , stay in the positive
knock knock.......
who's there ......
cancer ..........
go away , you can't come in
THANK YOU !!!!!! whoever you are , i walked in with some wrinkly dollars and a baggie of change,, carefully pricing as i went ,,, and then -- "otto you have a another gift card here" shazaam !!! i got 2 extra apples and another tomato , some quinoa, and had to hold back my happy crying ...
i am receiving so many good vibes and buckets of love !! i had a blog planned for today , but i'll write it for tommorrow,, today's gift has overwhelmed me in a very good way..
i'm a few paychecks away from getting most of my debt paid... and as i typed that sentence , the cancer payment people called,,, i missed my october , but i'm ok to pay in two weeks.. whew ... the lady was very nice,, i guess having cancer gets you a small amount of lee-way ,,, i've had bill collectors call , many years ago , and those people were NASTY !!!
health report ::
how do i feel -- super great
weight -- 144.8
attitude -- fantastic
strength -- very good, getting "ripped" & "cut"
tumor -- smallest ever, hard to photograph
overall score -- 9.2
sunny days are great , i just wish it was warmer,, 28 this morning let me know winter is on the way ,, and the dogs are gonna be inside more,, and the wrestling matches they have are almost WWE worthy... they grab each others faces and tug away ,, it's crazy , that they haven't pooped out their eyes yet.. Zuzu is now able to jump to the top of the fence, 6ft., once she learns to grab the top, she's going over like Johnny Rotten... we'll have to put a net up.. Bella just sits there and watches her crazy room-mate spaz out over the squirrels.
ok much love everybody , stay in the positive
knock knock.......
who's there ......
cancer ..........
go away , you can't come in
Sunday, November 4, 2012
having a split personality is a plus
i am my own "doctor",, i have one patient, ME , if i die , i am out of business,, i REALLY care about my patient. i love that goofy bastard, he 's a bit nutty at times , but so far he has done everything i've recommended.
So far , fantastic results.. better than the other doctors who wanted me as a patient.. and if i die , they will have other patients. i would have been ONE of their 100's of patients.. i would have been "a file" , just opened and looked at when i was there. if i died, they'd "file me" in the dead pile,, then it'd be "who's next"
as my own HEALTH PROVIDER, i am focused on my patient every second, every minute , every hour, every day , every night , every week .. i get no weekends off , no vacations in St Thomas,. My patient needs me , i've dedicated 100% of my energy to him -... i know i care more about my patient than the other doctors care about their 100 + patients.. i might be wrong , but , i don't think the doctor i met in July is thinking about what i am going to eat today, how much exercise i'm getting , and what i am even THINKING. he's busy with 100's of people, and trying to figure out which island in the carribean to go to , St Thomas was nice, but there's got to be a better one
i don't have the machines they have, i just have inquisitive ideas. i don't have any BIO-Hazard chemicals locked in a 2 inch thick- stainless steel case.. i don't need a lead vest to treat my self ~ ( eat ). my office doesn't have crappy "feel-good " art on the walls,, i DO have food guides and nutritional pamphlets..
i am not "getting my affairs in order". i'm NOT prepping to die
my patient and i get along nicely .. we talk everyday, not once a day , or once a week,,, i can get questions answered right away ,, no waiting on a "call - back" , my doctor is not at a convention, or out to dinner, or looking at the wrong file that someone carelessly handed him.. no OOOPS ,, wrong guy , here is the correct file... i'm not shuffling my file with 3 other doctors who all have many other patients
my "file" is food receipts , and a how i feel chart , and how much do i weigh, how strong am i today ? my file is always open, it is 135 days ( pages) ,, it is not in that file case with 1000's of others...
so far i haven't been upset with my patient, i support his ideas, he's doing lots of research, we can both look at this stuff whenever new ideas arise .. and his results are impressive.......................
#1. almost no tumor ....... no grapefruit,, !!
#2. he feels great ( not a bad thing for a cancer patient)
#3. he's stronger than he's been for years
#4. he does everything recommended , no "guff"
#5. he has a great attitude ( for someone who is "supposed" to be VERY ILL and near death , really soon - december)
#6. he's 100% dedicated to his recovery
#7. he's ok with this taking a "while"- it's a lifestyle , not an end date
"patient" that's a wacky word,, i am a patient , and i am being patient with my progress,, i am not rushing to be "cancer free",, rushing anything causes stress -
STRESS - the #3 CAUSE of cancer,
#1 - enviroment / pollutants. ( chemo is a pollutant )
#2. get ready -- RADIATION .. ( from tests , microwaves, cell phones, electronic devices ) .
the SUN is NOT bad for you .. don't fall for that bullshit from a large corporation..
okie smokes BatMan !!! ,, it's not easy to stay away from those 3,, what can you do ?? it's not that hard Robin, eat right, exercise, and don't smoke for starters
what you decide to put IN your body ( diet Mt Dew ? ).......... or ....... ( filtered water)..... ( organic vegetables ) or ................( processed GMO substances - you can't even call it - food ).. YOUR precious body , the only ONE you get, you put "whatever" in it with YOUR hands... you must decide NOW !!! - how healthy do i want to be.
ok, you're thinking -- but organic food COST SO MUCH,, "i don't have time to cook" , or go to the grocery store, i can't figure out those numbers on the food stickers ,, AND you just saw a story on FOX news, MSNBC, and CNN, that organic food has NO health benefits over regular "food" .. ..............well 15 different prescriptions, a few medical procedures, and a funeral cost a lot more
and you trust FOX news? CNN? MSNBC??? sorry to hear that .. sucker
and you don't have to cook much,, most of it is eaten RAW / uncooked.. cooking vegetables KILLS the nutrients.. look it up .. and so it's BLAND sometimes.. how's that chemo taste??
organic food / vegetables have a "9" as the first # ,, and usually the "9" is even bigger than the other #'s , so you can see it easier... how hard is that??????,, a lot harder than a Hardley's drive thru...... NO !!! NO !! NO !!! remember,, it's going INSIDE you
some "thick skinned" fruits & vegetables don't have to be organic,, research , research , research,, for your health,, don't play Angry-birds .. see you do have time
i survived dope & alcohol,, i don't put that shit in me any more. ever .........what am i stupid ,, wacky yes , stupid no
i "got cancer" -- so i don't put cancer producing things IN me anymore......... so i will be a "cancer survivor " but that term is not cool with me.. most people "survive TREATMENT" ,, they were strong enough to live through "treatments" and then the doctors say - hey - look what we did,, more horse-poop... and if you die,, well, that was a good chance anyway.. next
so i say i am BEATING cancer, i don't want people to think the cancer doctors have fixed me , they were "scheduling" my near death experience, not a path to wellness,, if i lived through treatment , then i might get well ,,,,, but they were gonna HURT me first.. crazy talk
Costco , the BIG BOX store,, i'd never been there before i had cancer,, but the organic carrots there are only 67 cents a pound... that's 1/2 price compared to the organic grocer .. so i have to get them there , its a $$ issue.. i get 3 -10 bogs per visit ( 5 or 6 days worth ).. i'm the guy with 3 items at Costco,, what a dick,, 3 things... and i carry them with my arms,, no kart... the " organic room " is a little "hut" ,,, WAY in the back ,, kinda hidden behind the MEAT area,, HARD TO FIND at first... 30 lbs, carried by hand - ALL THE WAY from in back.. oooooooooh the pain... but people are NICE !!!, they say , ""i'm going up front, put those in my kart , you don't have to carry them "" but i want to carry them , it's a 30 lb workout for free...... then at the checkout , it's like.. what's up with the carrots ????????? so i say with a firm powerful voice - I'M BEATING cancer.... yesterday 8 people immediately swung around to look at me - "beating cancer ?'' they asked .. yes !!!!!!! with food & vitamins... and i get all those immediate good vibes as bonus.. one lady asked many questions,, she got the quick story about the "Grapefruit" - silly talk ... NO medicines- NO machines.
i didn't know how my life and thought process would be altered so much from having cancer.. some "goals" have been pushed aside, if you are not alive & healthy , no goals can be reached anyway ..
now i am on a new quest - stay as healthy as possible, and get the word out -- you can "fix yourself" ,, i'm NOT on a negative, cancer industry bashing program. negativity BREEDS illness
i want you all to be well & happy
So far , fantastic results.. better than the other doctors who wanted me as a patient.. and if i die , they will have other patients. i would have been ONE of their 100's of patients.. i would have been "a file" , just opened and looked at when i was there. if i died, they'd "file me" in the dead pile,, then it'd be "who's next"
as my own HEALTH PROVIDER, i am focused on my patient every second, every minute , every hour, every day , every night , every week .. i get no weekends off , no vacations in St Thomas,. My patient needs me , i've dedicated 100% of my energy to him -... i know i care more about my patient than the other doctors care about their 100 + patients.. i might be wrong , but , i don't think the doctor i met in July is thinking about what i am going to eat today, how much exercise i'm getting , and what i am even THINKING. he's busy with 100's of people, and trying to figure out which island in the carribean to go to , St Thomas was nice, but there's got to be a better one
i don't have the machines they have, i just have inquisitive ideas. i don't have any BIO-Hazard chemicals locked in a 2 inch thick- stainless steel case.. i don't need a lead vest to treat my self ~ ( eat ). my office doesn't have crappy "feel-good " art on the walls,, i DO have food guides and nutritional pamphlets..
i am not "getting my affairs in order". i'm NOT prepping to die
my patient and i get along nicely .. we talk everyday, not once a day , or once a week,,, i can get questions answered right away ,, no waiting on a "call - back" , my doctor is not at a convention, or out to dinner, or looking at the wrong file that someone carelessly handed him.. no OOOPS ,, wrong guy , here is the correct file... i'm not shuffling my file with 3 other doctors who all have many other patients
my "file" is food receipts , and a how i feel chart , and how much do i weigh, how strong am i today ? my file is always open, it is 135 days ( pages) ,, it is not in that file case with 1000's of others...
so far i haven't been upset with my patient, i support his ideas, he's doing lots of research, we can both look at this stuff whenever new ideas arise .. and his results are impressive.......................
#1. almost no tumor ....... no grapefruit,, !!
#2. he feels great ( not a bad thing for a cancer patient)
#3. he's stronger than he's been for years
#4. he does everything recommended , no "guff"
#5. he has a great attitude ( for someone who is "supposed" to be VERY ILL and near death , really soon - december)
#6. he's 100% dedicated to his recovery
#7. he's ok with this taking a "while"- it's a lifestyle , not an end date
"patient" that's a wacky word,, i am a patient , and i am being patient with my progress,, i am not rushing to be "cancer free",, rushing anything causes stress -
STRESS - the #3 CAUSE of cancer,
#1 - enviroment / pollutants. ( chemo is a pollutant )
#2. get ready -- RADIATION .. ( from tests , microwaves, cell phones, electronic devices ) .
the SUN is NOT bad for you .. don't fall for that bullshit from a large corporation..
okie smokes BatMan !!! ,, it's not easy to stay away from those 3,, what can you do ?? it's not that hard Robin, eat right, exercise, and don't smoke for starters
what you decide to put IN your body ( diet Mt Dew ? ).......... or ....... ( filtered water)..... ( organic vegetables ) or ................( processed GMO substances - you can't even call it - food ).. YOUR precious body , the only ONE you get, you put "whatever" in it with YOUR hands... you must decide NOW !!! - how healthy do i want to be.
ok, you're thinking -- but organic food COST SO MUCH,, "i don't have time to cook" , or go to the grocery store, i can't figure out those numbers on the food stickers ,, AND you just saw a story on FOX news, MSNBC, and CNN, that organic food has NO health benefits over regular "food" .. ..............well 15 different prescriptions, a few medical procedures, and a funeral cost a lot more
and you trust FOX news? CNN? MSNBC??? sorry to hear that .. sucker
and you don't have to cook much,, most of it is eaten RAW / uncooked.. cooking vegetables KILLS the nutrients.. look it up .. and so it's BLAND sometimes.. how's that chemo taste??
organic food / vegetables have a "9" as the first # ,, and usually the "9" is even bigger than the other #'s , so you can see it easier... how hard is that??????,, a lot harder than a Hardley's drive thru...... NO !!! NO !! NO !!! remember,, it's going INSIDE you
some "thick skinned" fruits & vegetables don't have to be organic,, research , research , research,, for your health,, don't play Angry-birds .. see you do have time
i survived dope & alcohol,, i don't put that shit in me any more. ever .........what am i stupid ,, wacky yes , stupid no
i "got cancer" -- so i don't put cancer producing things IN me anymore......... so i will be a "cancer survivor " but that term is not cool with me.. most people "survive TREATMENT" ,, they were strong enough to live through "treatments" and then the doctors say - hey - look what we did,, more horse-poop... and if you die,, well, that was a good chance anyway.. next
so i say i am BEATING cancer, i don't want people to think the cancer doctors have fixed me , they were "scheduling" my near death experience, not a path to wellness,, if i lived through treatment , then i might get well ,,,,, but they were gonna HURT me first.. crazy talk
Costco , the BIG BOX store,, i'd never been there before i had cancer,, but the organic carrots there are only 67 cents a pound... that's 1/2 price compared to the organic grocer .. so i have to get them there , its a $$ issue.. i get 3 -10 bogs per visit ( 5 or 6 days worth ).. i'm the guy with 3 items at Costco,, what a dick,, 3 things... and i carry them with my arms,, no kart... the " organic room " is a little "hut" ,,, WAY in the back ,, kinda hidden behind the MEAT area,, HARD TO FIND at first... 30 lbs, carried by hand - ALL THE WAY from in back.. oooooooooh the pain... but people are NICE !!!, they say , ""i'm going up front, put those in my kart , you don't have to carry them "" but i want to carry them , it's a 30 lb workout for free...... then at the checkout , it's like.. what's up with the carrots ????????? so i say with a firm powerful voice - I'M BEATING cancer.... yesterday 8 people immediately swung around to look at me - "beating cancer ?'' they asked .. yes !!!!!!! with food & vitamins... and i get all those immediate good vibes as bonus.. one lady asked many questions,, she got the quick story about the "Grapefruit" - silly talk ... NO medicines- NO machines.
i didn't know how my life and thought process would be altered so much from having cancer.. some "goals" have been pushed aside, if you are not alive & healthy , no goals can be reached anyway ..
now i am on a new quest - stay as healthy as possible, and get the word out -- you can "fix yourself" ,, i'm NOT on a negative, cancer industry bashing program. negativity BREEDS illness
i want you all to be well & happy
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