this should be my "turn-around" month, as in, i should be back to normal mentally .. i'm fit as a fiddle + PLUS + , ( physically ) ..
everybody's struggle is to feel good & be happy , it's not easy to even "just make it " in today's world.. so i feel great , i should be super happy about that , but i keep letting $ punch me in the brain.. it's stupid,,, i'm beating cancer !!! and worried about $$....
but i hate to owe people , and i need to eat lots of food,, 145.8 today ,, that's the lowest yet , 3 times i've been 145.8 lately ,, that's almost minus 18 lbs. since july 2nd ...... my radiation mask would have been loose,,, and that would have caused more damage - whew..
this would have been the last day of radiation treatments,, next week is the "bye " week, and then off to the chemo center, so i hope to see the radiologist july 16th , and show him my results.. my guess is that they will try to present their propaganda again,... and offer up some kind of treatment,, ... i'm being selfish again, one of the reasons i want to get re-tested, is to see the doctor's face when he sees no visible tumor.... according to him,, it's should be as big as an apple ..
it's bad that i want to kinda make him eat his words,, i should have bet him,, that if i came back with no tumor , i get to shoot him with the radiation machine.. and then give him a "little chemo" ,, just in case... because he said i needed that too....
i need to get to a wellness center , and have a complete physical, and a blood screen , i do feel good , but i haven't been tested for what i've been eating , and the vitamin intake.. that's why i'm not aggressive about sharing my exact diet.. i don't want to lead anyone into a bad idea.. once i have the results , then i can post a - ""here's what i ate , and it did this"" - data sheet
our house smells great!! beans on the stove , yummy ,, and i don't need a lead vest , to consume these... a great way to save some $ , and boost your diet , it to buy dry beans.. soak them overnight, and then season them exactly how you want.. a can on beans is like 80 cents,, that's one meal / serving .. dry beans are $2 or $3 a pound,, a pound of dry beans cooks up to be many DAYS of superfood.. season each batch completely different , and they never get "boring" .. the key is to keep the food & juices TASTY !!! so you want to eat ,,, and don't have to "choke down" your life saving foods
ok enough preaching , i should use my own advise,, and snap out of this dip i am in...
sun up will bring all the things i need
be well my friends!!!
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