i feel real close to normal , being back to work is really helping ,,
in 2 weeks i should be feeling fantastic,, i will be re-settled into my life,, MY new awesome healthy life ,,
not "cancer otto," i will still be fighting cancer, but the end of the tunnel seems to be in sight ,, not like the feelings when it all started .
ok that's it for today
have a great weekend
go see a local band, or entertainer, and after their set ,, actually walk up to them and say , "hey , that was great " that will spread some joy for sure
thumbs up twice
Friday, October 12, 2012
Thursday, October 11, 2012
i forgot to hit publish
i feel great , things are super ! not much to say today ..
if you have netflix, watch Food Matters... if you've seen it ,, watch it again, instead of some crappy sit-com.. lucky for me , i had seen this movie before i "got cancer"... because of this movie , i watched HOURS of other food & nutrition movies,, all that is saving me today
here's the only youtube link i could find,, it has subtitles in arabic? ,, but you can still watch it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xBxu11WFXj4
the Gerson Miracle , also fantastic.. this is the main source of my diet ideas
http://www.youtube.com/movie?v=sbIixJI_oa4&feature=mv_sr
and this one helped me think about the chemical side of treatment, and the courtroom footage will just blow you mind.. something is wrong with the "health system"
Burzynski
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0zBBfN5mQa8
if you watch enough of these types of movies ,,, or hopefully just these three,, you will understand how i decided to "walk away " from "treatment" ..
i HAD to try food & vitamins , for the same amount of time they were going to radiate me FIRST,,, then think about traditional treatment ,, if the food deal failed...
it was 8 weeks of food , vitamins & good vibes = look at the pics and i feel fantastic
OR
8 weeks of treatment and the side effects ...
i don't want to offend anyone but , i think to just sign on to treatment, it horribly stupid...
they tell you you have X amount of time left ,, how do they know that ,, ? ,, so why NOT try everything YOU think might help ,,, heck,, you're only messing with X amount of time .. GO FOR IT !!!! if you're wrong , the cancer center will let you back in..
so watch some movies,, and believe in yourself
if you have netflix, watch Food Matters... if you've seen it ,, watch it again, instead of some crappy sit-com.. lucky for me , i had seen this movie before i "got cancer"... because of this movie , i watched HOURS of other food & nutrition movies,, all that is saving me today
here's the only youtube link i could find,, it has subtitles in arabic? ,, but you can still watch it
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xBxu11WFXj4
the Gerson Miracle , also fantastic.. this is the main source of my diet ideas
http://www.youtube.com/movie?v=sbIixJI_oa4&feature=mv_sr
and this one helped me think about the chemical side of treatment, and the courtroom footage will just blow you mind.. something is wrong with the "health system"
Burzynski
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0zBBfN5mQa8
if you watch enough of these types of movies ,,, or hopefully just these three,, you will understand how i decided to "walk away " from "treatment" ..
i HAD to try food & vitamins , for the same amount of time they were going to radiate me FIRST,,, then think about traditional treatment ,, if the food deal failed...
it was 8 weeks of food , vitamins & good vibes = look at the pics and i feel fantastic
OR
8 weeks of treatment and the side effects ...
i don't want to offend anyone but , i think to just sign on to treatment, it horribly stupid...
they tell you you have X amount of time left ,, how do they know that ,, ? ,, so why NOT try everything YOU think might help ,,, heck,, you're only messing with X amount of time .. GO FOR IT !!!! if you're wrong , the cancer center will let you back in..
so watch some movies,, and believe in yourself Wednesday, October 10, 2012
no test next week
for weeks, i was writing about the "re-test" and that date - october 16th. that is next tuesday.. i'm not going back for a "re-test" on that date .
#1 , i cant afford it. sure health insurance will cover a good portion of it , but i don't have that $$. I'd rather "eat" that $$-- as in food & vitamins.
#2, i will still have some cancer in me next tuesday, so why let them "re-propaganda" me, and maybe even scare me again.
#3, if i was "in treatment" , i'd be very damaged buy now, and i am not damaged at all under "my" care. so i am WAY ahead of their prognosis... and they would still offer me "treatment" if i wanted - Chemo - " to make sure " the cancer will be taken away
#4 , the cancer center , even with all the flowers and art on the walls, is a negative place ( for me) ,,, i DO NOT need any negative energy .. i am so close to to feeling "cured" .
#5 . the doctor i NEED to see a.s.a.p. is the one who can do blood work, and tell me what my self imposed diet is actually doing to me . i feel great , but i am not certain that i am as healthy as i feel... sure i've almost erased my tumor, but what is going on with my other organs ?? i haven't lost any muscle-mass, just "fat" , and my strength is better than before cancer.
the stress factor of not working is over , i'm back to work with both my "earth job" - ( pays most of my bills,and i can dig out of this $$ hole i'm in ) and my comedy career. NOT working , and NOT doing any show-biz work had me on the edge of being really bummed out.. i was just the cancer guy --
as the cancer guy- i've done very well,, i kept my good attitude , got EVEN healthier than i ever imagined i'd be ,, and i made 95 % of the tumor go away.. i have a new outlook on life, much better than before , i really know what is important now .. - staying healthy , remaining positive, and slowly getting my story out.. i don't know if other people can do what i've done , but at least i have documented PROOF that "my " 8 weeks of treatment , gave me better results then what the cancer center would have done.
Chemo was on their list , supposed to start monday the 15th,, for 7 weeks , ending december 1st ... maybe , and that's a "maybe",, they will want to see me early in december, to compare what i've done , against what they thought they were going to do ........................... first comparison will be side effects Vs side effects,, and i am going to win that one hands down.
summing up,, i have crossed over to the good side of my brain, i have enough positive results to not be afraid of the cancer any more.. it's on me , but not spreading, so who cares... and now you can't even see it , even if you know where it is...
grapefruit by december ?????? , that's 21 days away .. it better start growing quick...
thanks to all the readers,, i've been a bitch at times, angry, and scared.. i thought i was doomed, like anyone would , with a cancer diagnosis... that word usually brings up bad thoughts... i lucked out ( so far) .. i am confident that i will be a-ok , clear by january,, and if not ,, then i stay on this lifestyle change and be forever healthy...
that's a good result - forever healthy . and happy on top of that .
october 10th
july 27th
65 days ....
ding !!
#1 , i cant afford it. sure health insurance will cover a good portion of it , but i don't have that $$. I'd rather "eat" that $$-- as in food & vitamins.
#2, i will still have some cancer in me next tuesday, so why let them "re-propaganda" me, and maybe even scare me again.
#3, if i was "in treatment" , i'd be very damaged buy now, and i am not damaged at all under "my" care. so i am WAY ahead of their prognosis... and they would still offer me "treatment" if i wanted - Chemo - " to make sure " the cancer will be taken away
#4 , the cancer center , even with all the flowers and art on the walls, is a negative place ( for me) ,,, i DO NOT need any negative energy .. i am so close to to feeling "cured" .
#5 . the doctor i NEED to see a.s.a.p. is the one who can do blood work, and tell me what my self imposed diet is actually doing to me . i feel great , but i am not certain that i am as healthy as i feel... sure i've almost erased my tumor, but what is going on with my other organs ?? i haven't lost any muscle-mass, just "fat" , and my strength is better than before cancer.
the stress factor of not working is over , i'm back to work with both my "earth job" - ( pays most of my bills,and i can dig out of this $$ hole i'm in ) and my comedy career. NOT working , and NOT doing any show-biz work had me on the edge of being really bummed out.. i was just the cancer guy --
as the cancer guy- i've done very well,, i kept my good attitude , got EVEN healthier than i ever imagined i'd be ,, and i made 95 % of the tumor go away.. i have a new outlook on life, much better than before , i really know what is important now .. - staying healthy , remaining positive, and slowly getting my story out.. i don't know if other people can do what i've done , but at least i have documented PROOF that "my " 8 weeks of treatment , gave me better results then what the cancer center would have done.
Chemo was on their list , supposed to start monday the 15th,, for 7 weeks , ending december 1st ... maybe , and that's a "maybe",, they will want to see me early in december, to compare what i've done , against what they thought they were going to do ........................... first comparison will be side effects Vs side effects,, and i am going to win that one hands down.
summing up,, i have crossed over to the good side of my brain, i have enough positive results to not be afraid of the cancer any more.. it's on me , but not spreading, so who cares... and now you can't even see it , even if you know where it is...
grapefruit by december ?????? , that's 21 days away .. it better start growing quick...
thanks to all the readers,, i've been a bitch at times, angry, and scared.. i thought i was doomed, like anyone would , with a cancer diagnosis... that word usually brings up bad thoughts... i lucked out ( so far) .. i am confident that i will be a-ok , clear by january,, and if not ,, then i stay on this lifestyle change and be forever healthy...
that's a good result - forever healthy . and happy on top of that .
october 10th
july 27th
ding !!
Tuesday, October 9, 2012
thanks for your help !
things are getting better daily ,, whew ,, it's been a while..
i have a nice "day" job again, the gigs are starting to fall into my schedule.
my weight loss has been an issue , for me,, i started at 162 + , and am down to 148 ,, no crappy foods ,,,, i have to eat a LOT . i found this ( below ) yesterday .. this might be me ??
CACHEXIA (Wasting/Rapid Weight Loss)
Cachexia is loss of weight, muscle atrophy, fatigue, weakness and significant loss of appetite in someone who is not actively trying to lose weight, and is frequently seen in cancer, especially advanced cancers, HIV/AIDS and other conditions.
N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC), can help prevent cachexia and is considered an essential complimentary supplement to oleander in general. Other items that may may help combat cachexia are coconut oil and especially Garden of Life`s Primal Defense, a natural blend of 12 species of probiotics and Homeostatic Soil Organisms (HSOs). It helps support normal gastrointestinal balance of good and potentially harmful bacteria, and maximizes the benefits of a healthy diet by supporting normal absorption and assimilation of nutrients in the gut.
i have a nice "day" job again, the gigs are starting to fall into my schedule.
my weight loss has been an issue , for me,, i started at 162 + , and am down to 148 ,, no crappy foods ,,,, i have to eat a LOT . i found this ( below ) yesterday .. this might be me ??
CACHEXIA (Wasting/Rapid Weight Loss)
Cachexia is loss of weight, muscle atrophy, fatigue, weakness and significant loss of appetite in someone who is not actively trying to lose weight, and is frequently seen in cancer, especially advanced cancers, HIV/AIDS and other conditions.
N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC), can help prevent cachexia and is considered an essential complimentary supplement to oleander in general. Other items that may may help combat cachexia are coconut oil and especially Garden of Life`s Primal Defense, a natural blend of 12 species of probiotics and Homeostatic Soil Organisms (HSOs). It helps support normal gastrointestinal balance of good and potentially harmful bacteria, and maximizes the benefits of a healthy diet by supporting normal absorption and assimilation of nutrients in the gut.
Monday, October 8, 2012
sigh of relief
i am returning to the place i retired from,,, they gave me the option to return when i left.
they all like me there, i know what i am doing ,, this should be way less stress than the shop lackey gig.
it was good that i was "retired" when the cancer news came to me,, that gave me 24hours a day to research my situation ... i would have had to ask for time off , if i was still working at the time.. so it seems two paths have re merged .
there's a cancer clause in "worker's rights" ,, where a place has to give you 12 weeks off if you get cancer or some other big disease,, and hold your job , if you are able to return,, .. so it's almost like i'm using that ..
so my worried $$ thoughts , can be slowly taken away ,, i'll be out of debt soon.. what a relief ..
here's the apricot seeds i use.. 2 bags of these for $ 13.98 .. 135 days worth..
they are "bitter" at first ,, but much tastier than Chemo
ok have a great week ,, me too
they all like me there, i know what i am doing ,, this should be way less stress than the shop lackey gig.
it was good that i was "retired" when the cancer news came to me,, that gave me 24hours a day to research my situation ... i would have had to ask for time off , if i was still working at the time.. so it seems two paths have re merged .
there's a cancer clause in "worker's rights" ,, where a place has to give you 12 weeks off if you get cancer or some other big disease,, and hold your job , if you are able to return,, .. so it's almost like i'm using that ..
so my worried $$ thoughts , can be slowly taken away ,, i'll be out of debt soon.. what a relief ..
here's the apricot seeds i use.. 2 bags of these for $ 13.98 .. 135 days worth..
they are "bitter" at first ,, but much tastier than Chemo
ok have a great week ,, me too
Sunday, October 7, 2012
bouncing around my brain
i was a shaky little kid, i like to turn my eyelids inside out ,, i like to put the shoes on the wrong feet, take my arms out of my sleeves ,draw weird pictures, tap on stuff, sit upside down, look up constantly,laugh for "no reason" ,make things go ding, day dream, i took some stuff apart, & i watched the cowboys & indians on my pajamas fight every night- even told my mom about it.
good thing that was the early 60's,,, a kid with 1/2 of one of those "symptoms" would be on all kinds of meds, in today's crazy pill poppin world
when i was a waitor , and someone said , "i'm a vegan",, i was like "stay home "---- now i am a super vegan,, and guess what - NO way i'd go out to eat, i didn't understand the Vegan thing before , but i sure do now,,,
so i'm a vegan ,i don't say i am,, "i have a specific dietary lifestyle " i fell into it , but i don't use Soy products,, or tofu,, soy is one of the top 3 GMO foods,, i've read that organic soy is kind of hard to get , i might be wrong ..., but why chance it ..
my mental state is many times better than last week .. the shop lackey job was ok at first , but then they had me do some stuff a rookie should not have been near. and no old doors to practice on, if you know what i mean.. so i can't have that stress of making mistakes... and ,, if a guy saws off a fiberglass panel , then the whole place is stinky .. and if you can smell plastic--- it's IN YOUR lungs,,, so i can't work in a chemical plant either.. if i have to wear a breather , i shouldn't be working there ..
aaaaaaaaw , no pressure mon,, the island way.. chill out .. it's gonna be fine
ok have a great week
good thing that was the early 60's,,, a kid with 1/2 of one of those "symptoms" would be on all kinds of meds, in today's crazy pill poppin world
when i was a waitor , and someone said , "i'm a vegan",, i was like "stay home "---- now i am a super vegan,, and guess what - NO way i'd go out to eat, i didn't understand the Vegan thing before , but i sure do now,,,
so i'm a vegan ,i don't say i am,, "i have a specific dietary lifestyle " i fell into it , but i don't use Soy products,, or tofu,, soy is one of the top 3 GMO foods,, i've read that organic soy is kind of hard to get , i might be wrong ..., but why chance it ..
my mental state is many times better than last week .. the shop lackey job was ok at first , but then they had me do some stuff a rookie should not have been near. and no old doors to practice on, if you know what i mean.. so i can't have that stress of making mistakes... and ,, if a guy saws off a fiberglass panel , then the whole place is stinky .. and if you can smell plastic--- it's IN YOUR lungs,,, so i can't work in a chemical plant either.. if i have to wear a breather , i shouldn't be working there ..
ok have a great week
Saturday, October 6, 2012
now i could be PISSED
if i go get re-tested, they are going to want to do another PET scan, "apples to apples" they said .. i just want a soni-gram ,, to prove the tumor is smaller, other than eyesight,,.. just an office visit to show them my progress , is going to be over $400, ~~ about $200 to me ,, i'd rather save that money for food.. i don't need the bad energy from the cancer center either.. so this week i'm sending them a letter, with my before and NOW pictures, and they can call me for a free "talk", if they are EVEN interested in how i did "it"
my results are - almost NO tumor, i feel fantastic.
and they still want to offer me Chemo-therapy . no thanks
the "re-test " was also a bit of a stress maker , so i don't need that .. after radiation, it was gonna be 7 weeks of chemo.. that end date will be december 1st... so maybe i'll go back and show them early december.. i'm very confident that by then, i will have NO tumor at all,, where as they predicted a grapefruit size by then... that will be an easy comparison,,, hold a grapefruit against my neck, remove, look at neck... enter data ..
oh ,,, but the tumor is NOT the primary, so no tumor, means nothing ???
...well - to me ,, and remember i'm doing this to myself ,,,, if the tumor is 30 times smaller, the "other cancer" , or primary ,, should be 20 to 30 times less too..
bad thinking ??? i don't think so .............
so "the re-test" is "off" my minds calendar , unless they want to do the free visit / soni-gram deal with me.... if I was a doctor , and i saw these results , I would want to hear how it was done ... IMPOSSIBLE was what they told me,, ... if they don't want to know how i did it , then i am very right about what i think the "cancer system " is / does... prove me wrong "medicine man" ...
i saw two friends ( Char & Marvin) at the organic market .. it was an awesome moment,, they had not talked to me since diagnosis,,, i was "in my element" as in,, right there in the cancer fight isle....,, fresh food everywhere... they said they follow my blog ... i am slowly finding out who you 40 readers are...
i've mentioned before , that people are very surprised by how alive i am , and how freaking healthy i look.. these two had that same feeling .... and i heard Char say , on the way out ""wow , that made my day "" ... and hearing that MADE MY day .... INDY is a very loving town... not everywhere , but most of it is...
and i am so lucky to be alive.. catching all the love you guys keep sending .. thanks !!!! ..
ok i just checked the Mayo Clinic's web page for "alternative " treatments.. now my mind is blown completely.... it said this .....
Alternative cancer treatments won't play any role in curing your cancer, but they may help you cope with signs and symptoms caused by cancer and cancer treatments. Common signs and symptoms such as anxiety, fatigue, nausea and vomiting, pain, difficulty sleeping, and stress may be lessened by alternative treatments.
Use alternative cancer treatments as a supplement to treatments you receive from your doctor — not as a substitute for medical care.
holy shit ... not a substitute for "medical care" .... h o l y s h i t !!!
then they list 11 "alternative " treatments ,, BUT NOT ONE is what you eat ... or " Diet "
here's the link, so you know i'm not trashing the Mayo clinic http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/cancer-treatment/CM00002
once again ---
my results are - almost NO tumor, i feel fantastic.
and they still want to offer me Chemo-therapy . no thanks
the "re-test " was also a bit of a stress maker , so i don't need that .. after radiation, it was gonna be 7 weeks of chemo.. that end date will be december 1st... so maybe i'll go back and show them early december.. i'm very confident that by then, i will have NO tumor at all,, where as they predicted a grapefruit size by then... that will be an easy comparison,,, hold a grapefruit against my neck, remove, look at neck... enter data ..
oh ,,, but the tumor is NOT the primary, so no tumor, means nothing ???
...well - to me ,, and remember i'm doing this to myself ,,,, if the tumor is 30 times smaller, the "other cancer" , or primary ,, should be 20 to 30 times less too..
bad thinking ??? i don't think so .............
so "the re-test" is "off" my minds calendar , unless they want to do the free visit / soni-gram deal with me.... if I was a doctor , and i saw these results , I would want to hear how it was done ... IMPOSSIBLE was what they told me,, ... if they don't want to know how i did it , then i am very right about what i think the "cancer system " is / does... prove me wrong "medicine man" ...
i saw two friends ( Char & Marvin) at the organic market .. it was an awesome moment,, they had not talked to me since diagnosis,,, i was "in my element" as in,, right there in the cancer fight isle....,, fresh food everywhere... they said they follow my blog ... i am slowly finding out who you 40 readers are...
i've mentioned before , that people are very surprised by how alive i am , and how freaking healthy i look.. these two had that same feeling .... and i heard Char say , on the way out ""wow , that made my day "" ... and hearing that MADE MY day .... INDY is a very loving town... not everywhere , but most of it is...
and i am so lucky to be alive.. catching all the love you guys keep sending .. thanks !!!! ..
ok i just checked the Mayo Clinic's web page for "alternative " treatments.. now my mind is blown completely.... it said this .....
Alternative cancer treatments won't play any role in curing your cancer, but they may help you cope with signs and symptoms caused by cancer and cancer treatments. Common signs and symptoms such as anxiety, fatigue, nausea and vomiting, pain, difficulty sleeping, and stress may be lessened by alternative treatments.
Use alternative cancer treatments as a supplement to treatments you receive from your doctor — not as a substitute for medical care.
holy shit ... not a substitute for "medical care" .... h o l y s h i t !!!
then they list 11 "alternative " treatments ,, BUT NOT ONE is what you eat ... or " Diet "
here's the link, so you know i'm not trashing the Mayo clinic http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/cancer-treatment/CM00002
once again ---
Alternative cancer treatments can't cure your cancer, but they may provide some relief from signs and symptoms.
ummmm ,,, i have to say horse-poo-ey to that.... they can stick something in your veins, a corrosive poison, microwave you, chop you up ,, but talk about FOOD ??? naaaaaaaaaaa ,, not important
WHERE'S DIET ????? my mercy ,,, now i'm done for today ..
stay positive folks,, it's gonna be just fine
i gotta get in the sun NOW .. bye
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