#1 , i cant afford it. sure health insurance will cover a good portion of it , but i don't have that $$. I'd rather "eat" that $$-- as in food & vitamins.
#2, i will still have some cancer in me next tuesday, so why let them "re-propaganda" me, and maybe even scare me again.
#3, if i was "in treatment" , i'd be very damaged buy now, and i am not damaged at all under "my" care. so i am WAY ahead of their prognosis... and they would still offer me "treatment" if i wanted - Chemo - " to make sure " the cancer will be taken away
#4 , the cancer center , even with all the flowers and art on the walls, is a negative place ( for me) ,,, i DO NOT need any negative energy .. i am so close to to feeling "cured" .
#5 . the doctor i NEED to see a.s.a.p. is the one who can do blood work, and tell me what my self imposed diet is actually doing to me . i feel great , but i am not certain that i am as healthy as i feel... sure i've almost erased my tumor, but what is going on with my other organs ?? i haven't lost any muscle-mass, just "fat" , and my strength is better than before cancer.
the stress factor of not working is over , i'm back to work with both my "earth job" - ( pays most of my bills,and i can dig out of this $$ hole i'm in ) and my comedy career. NOT working , and NOT doing any show-biz work had me on the edge of being really bummed out.. i was just the cancer guy --
as the cancer guy- i've done very well,, i kept my good attitude , got EVEN healthier than i ever imagined i'd be ,, and i made 95 % of the tumor go away.. i have a new outlook on life, much better than before , i really know what is important now .. - staying healthy , remaining positive, and slowly getting my story out.. i don't know if other people can do what i've done , but at least i have documented PROOF that "my " 8 weeks of treatment , gave me better results then what the cancer center would have done.
Chemo was on their list , supposed to start monday the 15th,, for 7 weeks , ending december 1st ... maybe , and that's a "maybe",, they will want to see me early in december, to compare what i've done , against what they thought they were going to do ........................... first comparison will be side effects Vs side effects,, and i am going to win that one hands down.
summing up,, i have crossed over to the good side of my brain, i have enough positive results to not be afraid of the cancer any more.. it's on me , but not spreading, so who cares... and now you can't even see it , even if you know where it is...
grapefruit by december ?????? , that's 21 days away .. it better start growing quick...
thanks to all the readers,, i've been a bitch at times, angry, and scared.. i thought i was doomed, like anyone would , with a cancer diagnosis... that word usually brings up bad thoughts... i lucked out ( so far) .. i am confident that i will be a-ok , clear by january,, and if not ,, then i stay on this lifestyle change and be forever healthy...
that's a good result - forever healthy . and happy on top of that .
october 10th
july 27th
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