nothing really new

i feel like  a slacker if i don't post everyday,,  but some days i have nothing  interesting to blab about

the  "fighting cancer"  loop has been running through my mind..it never ends,,  it  eats  up so much time, it's  hard  to be creative, it's a bummer

but  i am still alive & feeling great

the  internet gives me stress,, computers too..  i don't like  downloading  things,  it's scary to me..  that sounds  silly , but  that's the way it is

sorry about this weak , non-informative post.

tomorrow  will be  7  months since the diagnosis... 

happy days are ahead !!

24 minutes you'll never get back

here's the link to my "talk"  from the Melody Inn.   as  an entertainer, i think it's  not so good..  but like i said , it  was a  test run, i learned a lot, and  the  next  ones  will be really  much better .  otto talks about his cancer & food


plateau's of learning .  


since my cancer  diagnosis,  my life  has actually gotten much better ...   at first  it was terrible, but now  it's amazing  how  good i feel.        reading lots  of   different things  helps too..    it's all mental now,  stay in the  present, accept all that life  gives  me.  help as many people as i can  have a better day .       breathe , eat right, spread love



that deserves a   ding

are doctors & lawyers made of the same stuff

hang in there if you are dealing with something .  relax if you can,, for at least a few seconds at first,, the minutes  will build, but  at  least try  for the few seconds

if there was a split screen / dual time line  of my last 6 months,   what i did  Vs. what i turned  down,, that would be interesting.

i still feel fantastic..  plus the mental ups  & downs and  the never ending  cancerthoughts  are diminishing .

tomorrow i'll post a link to the cancer talk i did last week,, it's  how it  went, .,   was kind of a test run , the next ones will be much smoother

thanks  to the Food Angels again !!!!    how wonderful full you make me feel ,, thank you  again

i've been doing the  baking soda  mollassas gargle for a few weeks now, and the tumor is shrinking again, .. most people have cancer  deep inside, so drinking this would make sense.   my  supposed cancer is on my tonsils,  so i make this potion 2X , and gargle  with  it...  it's a direct hit to my "primary cancer spot"  .. ha ha & F-U cancer !!!     i drank the formula  for a few days, but  hated the taste,,   the  2X gargle  for sure is  making a difference

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yl8Y8I_TsjI




ok   see you all tomorrow .. video blog

i'm a slacker

today i was surprised to have no energy, i was a sleepy head all day with the dogs.    i did work on my possibly cracked radiator,   super cold weather and liquids are  not fun to deal with.

i juiced, swept, cooked, and did a few things, but  i just kept wanting to sleep.    i'm such a weenie about this  cold weather, i just  don't want to go out. 

my friend videotaped the "talk" monday, i need to see it and edit it before i let anyone see.  i don't want it spread around the internet unless it is help full.  there were also a few interruptions that put a glitch in the smoothness of the presentation..     and i had a few emotional moments, where i choked up real bad..    a good test run , the next one will be much better, and maybe more people will come out.

health report 

attitude ............... sleepy
pain  ...................  almost  zero..  lower  back    1985
tumor .................  staying small
weight.................  151
overall ................    8.4 

that's it  for today

positive energy is a plus.                            yeah , i just said that

links and stuff

i did my cancer talk monday night , it  went over nicely.  i only had  2 people show up from the invites, but there was about 40 people there when i did my presentation.. i   want to do that more often.

here are some  links that i used  for my cancer battle ..   

alkaline diet .......  alkaline diet  

movie  about the  food  system the war on health 

the program i am using the Gerson Therapy 

mind blowing film about cancer Bruzynski

good overall healthy information site Natural News

cure that is  " against the law ". Run From the Cure

inspirational short .. must watch !!the doctors were wrong

hilarious cartoons about the cancer industry you need a test 

movie that sums up lots of stuff that is going on in the world today , a believe it or not type of deal ...  Thrive

and of course, for  your own knowledge , "google"  the cure for  cancer ,, and see what comes up

remember, i'm  NOT telling you what to do , i'm just  giving leads to the stuff that helped me decide what to do.


i believed i could  do it , i know my body can,  just keep the poisons  out 

  

hey , hippe dude

i am not a big fan of winter, but there is one super cool thing i get  to do when it's  cold out...  wear my  otto-hat.. look at this beautiful thing .

years ago, my good friend made these for me .  she made each one different , 10  in all , this is the last one..

i felt super alive tonight,  ,,    even more than that -

 i had a wonderful guitar session  too

in my cancer fight , i am using just about anything i can that doesn't  cost a whole lot of $ , but  it has to grow from the earth.  i'm even using  hokus-pokus , abracadabra, and weird stuff like that..   i keep reading new  books too, and i find out i'm already  doing something the new book recommends.   two thumbs up for me.

health report -

weight ............... 151
attitude .............   zippity-do-da 
pain..................    tiny tiny amount, from the dogs pulling
tumor ...............    smallest yet 
overall .............    9. 63

here is one of my favorite things to listen to when i do my neck traction in the morning.. headphones are needed .  

 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pt7PbACBEYQ

healing tones, tibetan bells,that kind of stuff,,   they work for me 

 

i could have done that

things keep getting better .   it's amazing how different my mind feels compared to last  august..       i like  "time travel" stuff, or  alternate time lines.   what would have  happened if  you did this instead of that?.    there's a zillion choices you've made , and here you are ..  how did you end  up here ? 

you can't change any choices you've made, but you can make sure to learn from them.       or not  repeat a  bad one .     so in essence , a new path can start every second, minute, day , week , month or year, - whatever  time frame you'd  like to be in.     so, actually ,   you are not stuck in a habit,  you chose to keep doing  "it".. 

well that sounds crazy ? right..  a habit is broken when you stop doing it.. some  habits are "harder" than others to stop,  but it all comes down to just deciding to NOT  do something.  

reward yourself with good healthy "prizes"  when you accomplish something..   ice cream used to be  my reward. and i'd get a prize just for thinking of something cool .. all day long , neat thought- have  some ice cream.. this was a bad reward system

now,  when i get an exercise crossed off my daily list, or clean something,  then i get to snuggle  with the two  dogs for a few minutes.  the happy  vibes they give off are like a pint of Len & Terry's buried treasure sherbert  ... but no  muffin top weeks later .


i have really changed my overall attitude about  life.. i'm taking it slower,  i'm not gonna bundle my soul up into a mess about  some  un-forseen future that  won't ever happen..   if i  can spread  some positive vibes ,  give a little cheer and hope to people,  then i think  my  mission is a good healthy one..

today i start by thanking you all for helping me through the biggest challenge so far.   i think we have  it whipped, so that means another challenge will be waiting .  but i'm stronger than ever , and  wiser too, so  no fears my friends..