this might sound horrible,, but it seems true...
"Cancer - the best thing that's ever happened to me"
i've said " that " before, and i got a good slap in the face with reality ,, super-tuned everything going inside me , haven't missed a single workout, got a great attitude adjustment,, but the best thing about this "deal" is how people are giving me so much love , kindness , & good vibes,, and $ too !!!!
i couldn't have made it this far without the generous donations directly to me.. i'm overwhelmed by the kindness i've received.. i'm pretty hard on myself, i think i'm a looser most of the time, i can't get a handle on why so many people want to help me.
at this point in my life ( 54 yrs old) , i'm in the last third of my life.. i would not have wanted this cancer thing to happen to me when i was 20 ,,i would not have been mentally able to handle this back then..
Now,, being older & wiser, this was at first a REAL bummer , but now it's more of an inconvenience .. .....the drag, is the constant - " ya got cancer",, that repeats over and over, in your head , the food prep , and eating right is a pleasure. the exercise is minimal, and it also is a feel good activity.. so everything's good - except my own mind ,, but compared to july , wow ! what a fantastic change for the better
i was blessed with another donation this weekend!!! and then today at Pogues,, holy cow -- another GIFT CARD miracle
THANK YOU !!! ...... not worrying about proper food is such a relief...
ok , outside i go, & my show is tonight !!
report ...
feeling ........... really good
weight ......148.4
attitude ..... super
strength ..... bad -ass
tumor ...... smaller & easier to wiggle
over all ...... 9.4
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