i'm keepin it real

22 days  till the  re-test,,,  3 mondays  and the next day,, october is gonna be great,,,  some family birthdays, my re-test , and 24 years  of sobriety, 

i can book shows again,, i know i wont have to cancel any due to "treatment" ,,  


my "radiation" is FREE ,, i sit in the   sun 
 
here's what my  "chemo " costs .... this is crazy...

9 apricot seeds =             .20
19,000 iu Vitamin D3        .60
other vitamins                 2.50

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                                    $ 3.30                       some cancer pills  are $ 1000 +  a month         


food  &  drink
juice daily                        9.33
food organic                  11.00 
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                                   $20.33      

average  total     ..   $  23.63    to   save my life !!!,, 

no "pills" from Big Pharma,  just Earth,, and i can consume with wonderful taste, my medicines

two people can split a   ONE  meal at Crapplebee's   for  $20  +  drinks, 
and that's not  gonna save your life 

 tests  cost ..........................................this is crazy!!

biopsy ...................... $   198.00
CAT scan.................  $  2054.00
PET scan ................  $  7475.00
"Encounter" ...........   $   482.00 ............  to talk to radiologist
room fee ................    $    35.00   ...........  to sit in Radiologists room to talk to him       
 E.N.T.    .................    $   ?????   .......    hasn't arrived,
2nd Opinion...........     $   ?????   .........  hasn't arrived
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                              $  10, 244.00

my costs after  health insurance. ((  $ 120. a month ))  
 way less  . also crazy..

biopsy ...................... $      40.00
CAT scan.................  $     180.60
PET scan ................  $     150.00
"Encounter" ...........   $     194.68
room fee ................    $      27.65 

 E.N.T.    .................    $   ?????  
2nd Opinion...........     $   ?????
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                              $     592.93 ...............   this  "seems" like not much
add  "deductable" $   1000.00
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                              $  1592.93..     also  much less than the above  total,,                                                         but     who's   ready for  $1600.  in bills  out of nowhere?

my "retirement fund"   was  crushed by  "Just getting cancer," and the  "tests" that prove it

lucky for me, i was able to "physically " work,,              .. mentally , NO ..  the cancer funk is terrible,,  how anyone could  work through the first 3 months of cancer diagnosis is beyond belief...   it  wrecks you...  it even got me way down,, and then if  you get sick from "treatment" ,, good  god ,,  how  could you get better ??? .....

i feel  lucky that i was  able to inform myself enough to "walk away" ,  and  i get  to feel FANTASTIC, during  MY  treatment

so lifestyle change, anti-cancer food & juice program is about  $ 24 a day ,, forever... to stay HEALTHY,,,  just for  kicks, tally all your food  expenses for  a week,, divide  by  7,, easy math ...........  is  it more than  $24  ??  and  how  do you feel after you  eat   ?? 

it's  hard  to even google  how much  Radiation & Chemo costs,, 
 between $5,000 and $400,000,,,  are the  numbers ,,  
and this  money spent comes with some  bad  side effects 

 i wanted to take all the tests, and  did , to make  sure i knew what i had,,  so now i have to dig out of this  hole,, but that  wont be too bad, i feel great , that's  a great side effect

                            these two are good friends now..  sleeping back to  back 

                                  they pal around like sisters,  the humor factor is super high


ok   what a load  for today...  i never know what i'm gonna   blog, i just start going and   ding!