more sadness, dang.
my brother is my best friend. always has been. His best friend / dog - Joy , passed away today. she was almost 13 years old, and being an 80 pound Irish Setter, so, in dog years , she was almost 150.
we all have heavy hearts today. loosing a family member isn't easy
Joy was the perfect name for her..
now go find Faye , Simone, & Esperanza, i'm sure there's a chuck-it in the air right now
holoholo = hawaiin word for - glide with life.
we are all in our "life" canoes , all in the same water, so every paddle i make, makes a wake, and eventually, ends up hitting your canoe. so i try to be a happy paddler , gently easing my oar into everyone's ocean. our wakes combine to move us forward or sometimes backward. i've learned you can not get anywhere frantic paddling. it's loud, it looks foolish, and it makes a horrible wake, that others will feel.
with last weeks news , naturally i'm pretty happy. then yesterday, a big pile of sadness, so soon ?
our little buddy ZuZu moved to Casa Del Toro, a pit bull rescue and placement center. i am selfishly sad, broken hearted , i have become such good friends with her, and to see her leave was brutal. She was just too much for us. She needs a specific owner, some one who can spend the correct amount of time with her. Last august ,she arrived here in horrible shape , she was obviously a "yard dog" , and only weighed about 20 pounds. her collar was so tight , that her fur was wearing off. it made me sick, i had to help if i could.. so she ended up staying with us, and Bella and her became best of friends. They were my cancer buddies, walking them took my mind off of my situation for a few minutes. I have received so much entertainment from the two of them.
we know that ZuZu will be much better off in the years to come, so i balance that against my selfish sadness of missing her.
when Esperanza died, i was super sad, but there was closure. She went to doggie heaven, and i had to get over it. But i knew nothing bad would ever happen to her.. With ZuZu leaving , i have these blipps of fear about what if something bad happens.. even years from now, is it on me?, because we let her move on ?
stupid thinking , i know , but Lil ZuZu is just so adorable.. i'm sure she had a fun packed first day at her new home.. Bella was very relaxed today, no little devil-dog trying to play every second.
here she is .. 30 pounds of Dyno-Might !!!
i have really become attached to her, i can't tell if Bella is sad or relieved.
okee dokie,, that's what you get today
health report
weight ............... 146
attitude.............. very good
pain .................. zero
strength............. good
overall............... 9.1
hello , and welcome to the blog.
if you are new to this, be warned, if you skip back , i have some days that are very opinionated .
a super quick version of what's happened to me.
diagnosed last july 2 nd, 2012
googled , the cure for cancer
immediately changed to an Alkaline diet
took all the tests, weighed possible side effects
lemon size tumor july 27th
july 28th , decided to use food & vitamins only
november 27th , no visible tumor, feel great
june 3rd 2013. no cancer, no evidence of disease
i tried to follow The Gerson Therapy as close as possible
i used some cancer fighting suppliments
i believed it would work, and had lots of support
i did it to myself, and it worked ,
research is what saved me
it was very hard to say . i am cancer free,,,that first time
i've wanted to say that really bad, and after a few times , it's starting get comfortable. the happiness & surprised looks are just wonderful
don't let your taste buds kill you
i saw a specialist monday.
i am cancer free.. NO cancer.. boom !
i wanted to tell my dad in person , before i posted it here.
so it worked !!!! , the diet , vitamins , and good vibes / prayers
THANK YOU all , i couldn't have made it on my own.
so , yes , i am pretty happy .
i just have to keep "doing what i'm doing", and there should be no future issues.
health report
attitude ...................... back-flipping !! with glee
weight ...................... 144
strength .................... very good
pain........................... ZERO
overall ...................... 9.88
even though i only weigh 144, i feel 600 lbs lighter
i can hear Frank Sinatra right now...... start spreading the news.......
and from the balcony .......... amazing !!!
june 3rd, one year ago, was my first day of being "retired" from the food industry.. i was gonna take a month off , and then try to be a full time entertainer . oh life seemed to be starting again, and i was ready .... little did i know what was waiting
11 month re-cap.
so far all is good, no issues except being really sick in october for 6 days , and last week. my left lung hurt a lot, but it seems to be fine now . i can take giant breaths again , with out being painful.
weight ................ 142,, low from last week's illness
strength.............. very good
attitude.............. good, staying positive
pain level .......... 0.8
overall ............... 9.1
i really think i've got it whipped , i just must continue to think correctly, and stay on the food program.
my mind has been my biggest battle.. i think of the wrong things sometimes, and then it filters down in a bad way to my body. exercise and sweating is the cure for this..
so that's it. kinda boring.. diagnosed, changed diet, feel great, no physical issues. and i'm still alive
that was the worst week ever, but i'm almost 100 % now. i still have one uncomfortable lung, but it doesn't feel like it's full of glass, maybe just bruised. i weighed in at 139.7 on tuesday morning. i never thought i'd be under 140 ever,, back up to 144 today.. being able to eat all my meals is a wonderful feeling.
one year ago, i was 3 days away from "retiring" from working for the man,, and going full time as an entertainer. little did i know i was 30 days away from a real life changer. and what an adventure it's been.
i sure bitched a lot on my blog here , but i checked my notes and didn't bitch or complain in person , at home, at all ..
i did have a few "poor me" episodes, a cancer diagnosis & mysteries can throw even a positive attitude in the crapper at times.
thanks again to the food angel !!!! just in time, again.
the summer comedy drought is upon us.. what does this mean ? ... " comedy shows" kind of go away in the summer months, the sun is still out till 9 :30 , people want to be outside as much as possible, and no one wants to be inside at 8 pm .. it's just a summer fact..
well , i 'm glad to have an air conditioned job, at a place that just keeps getting busier every year. Not too many work places that have that kind of growth history..
june is usually on of my favorite months, and we're just hours away.. it's time to start everything over again. no gloom, no doom, no "what's gonna happen" mystery, i have 11 months of data,with a long life planned ahead.
health report
attitude ................ good , looking bright
weight .................. 144. low but better than 139
strength................ 96 %
overall score ......... 8 .3
when my blood panel came back months ago, they warned me NOT to get sick, as my immune system is a bit weak.. , if we all remember i got super sick in october and had to cancel 5 shows....
tuesday , i started feeling crappy,, most likely , microphone flu,,, comics & entertainers from 100's of miles are spewing their germs on mics nationwide.. The Melody Inn has action every night, so in just one week 96 different people might be unloading whatever they KNOW they have, or what the don't know they have .. it's just part of "entertainment". i have my "own Mic" , but it's been at band practice, shame on me...
wednesday.. i was certain i was in for a bad ride.. by wednesday night, after work, i was grieving... total body aches, joint pain everywhere, massive headache, no energy or strength --- i was sure i was dying... the cancer has gone & got me !! .................i had the wildest fever dreams ever , and woke up feeling the worst EVER.. this is the first time i've felt bad since october .. and i was pretty scared.
thursday... couldn't eat . or drink without throwing up instantly, 10 % of the exercise program, my head is exploding.. i'm coughing up orange (( from the carrots? . or are my lungs bleeding ? )).. the achy joint pain has gone to Def - Con 4.. and i have to go to work.. at 10:30 am.. this is gonna suck big time... only small sips of water are staying down.. my eyes looked like i was tripping big time, & i couldn't put basic thoughts together.. and the damn what if's start.. what if my brain is full of cancer, all of my joints are full of cancer, & my lungs are full of cancer. that's the only way someone can feel this shitty for sure. NO food and no pills= NO nutrients , and off to work i go... luckily ,i was able to leave , shortly after arriving. and was back home by noon.. i choked down 1/2 a meal , and as much water as i could handle, and went to bed.. stayed in bed until friday am. that's minus 4 meals and all my suppliments , and no juice too,, this is really bad....... more crazy dreams..
friday ,, walking dead.. orange coughing again, my brain felt like it was wrapped in industrial twine. NO energy at all. but i am off , and can stay home in bed all day again... one meal near 6 pm,, no puking !!! yippee .. and finally was able to keep down some juice.. 30 minutes later, i felt a tiny bit better, but back to bed till saturday morning... that minus 4 meals again... dying would have been a blessing, i was really hurting that bad... and on my mind is Saturday night , the busiest day of the year for us, and it's my shift. i'm doomed... you can't call in on the busiest day of the year, are you kidding me..
8 am saturday.... i woke a little better, but maybe at 18 % of normal, i am seriously in trouble for the evening.. the food stayed down, did 30% of exercises, and had a full load of juice & pills.... my brain is on fire, stayed in bed till 3 pm, got cleaned up , ate , went to work......... i told the crew is was sick as hell and they had to all step up to the A game, as i was only able to help a little bit... they did great, and i made it to close = 12:30 am.. whew.. still sick , but improving. but back to work at 10 am sunday....... crap
sunday , today , i woke up hungry @ 8 am, what a wonderful feeling.
ate the regular breakfast, 100% of exercises, and juice. cancer take-over thoughts are gone.. back to work, INDY 500 day,, i just have to make it to 3 pm. i did have a kinda "big" nosebleed out of nowhere, but it stopped in a few minutes
home at 3:40 ,, wow , what a week...
now more rest and LOTS of food, and tonight , my first walk with the dogs since monday,, lay in the yard chair inside, and watch the 500.. i should be normal by monday night..
some of you were thinking , go to the doctor!!! well , we all know how i feel about that , and they would have told me to do what i did.. try to eat , rest, stay calm... i shouldn't have worked , but it did force me to feel better , instead of staying home and want to die.
and that was my week,, how was yours?
