in "the old days" i used to work at least 65 hours a week.. i can not do that anymore, no way ... friday i got off at 12:30 am , and had to be back at 8 am, until 4 pm,,, that makes a 16 hours of work in a 24 hour segment. i need at least one hour to unwind and be a person before i can "fall asleep" .. so getting of at 12:30 , 30 minute ride home, makes it 1 am. add 90 minutes to de-compress, and we're at 3 am..... dang.
my mornings are time consuming too.. i need almost 2 hours before i have to be at work.. get up , do my stretches and weights, get the dogs out , & feed them, then i eat. Next,, neck traction 30 minutes, and then , make the daily juice, and ride the bike..
so i only got about 180 minutes of sleep friday night... my head was vibrating all day saturday . and at the gig, i almost passed out on stage... my performance was not as powerful as normal, and i was even frightened - when the shuttering started, about 5 minutes into my set. I thought "well this is it" - i'm gonna die on stage. ( which would be cool !!!).. luckily it went away , and i was able to be funny.
3 days left ----------- what !!! yep, 3 days left...
in august , the cancer doc called to tell me i was making a tragic mistake. your tumor will be as big as a grapefruit in December. By january , your cancer will have taken over your entire upper body, putting you in "grave condition".. then in february , it will basically be over...
i better get some stuff done before friday .....................
today when i was coming back from Pogues Run Grocery , i realized that i have not taken ANY "MEDICINE " in my cancer fight... nothing !!!!!!!!!!!!!! no aspirin, no pain pills, no nothing !!! W T F ... the cancer doc said " we'll give you all the drugs you want " - when he was presenting their plan ...
guess what , i DON'T want any drugs,, that wasn't a good selling point for me... i'd bet that many people are like ,, "crap , i have cancer , heck yeah doc , load me up on the oxycottins !!!"" ....
when i think about if i had signed on for treatment, i'd be recovering from radiation & chemo right now,, and i would not have been eating my superfoods. it would have been bags on the feeding tube, yum yum ,, so i'd be a pretty beat up cancer patient right about now..
72 hours and my life starts again.. and i have plans
just east of 10th & Rural... one of my the best things about having cancer is shopping here. i leave my house as the cancer dude, and then the nice people who work here uplift me giantly . and then there's the Food Angels,, without them i would be way behind in my winning battle against cancer..
thank you everyone who has taken the time to send me a good vibe.. it's working
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