i had monday & tuesday off for X mas, then got wednesday off too, because of the snow.. that's minus 24 hours,, dang ...
snow ........ it was almost 3 feet high in our driveway, but Heather bought a snow-blower 2 years ago, and i fired that baby up . electric start even !! and 2 hours of snow-blowing , was easier than 20 minutes of shoveling.. and today i felt like i didn't do any snow removal ...
cancer ,, i'm over it .... it's not gonna get me. it's been almost 6 months since diagnosis.. if i had more cancer than before , i would be feeling it by now ,, i'd be sick, weak, and frail. i'd have cancer symptoms - like ringing in the ears, or night sweats,, or continued weight loss,, ..
but i'm a bad cancer patient-- i CAN gain weight, i feel great , i'm super strong, NO ringing in my ears (( i did have some in july , so i do know what that symptom is )) ,, NO night sweats...
4 days and this crazy year will be done,,, all the past will be left behind. ....... the future looks incredibly wonderful
now that my Dad is somewhat OK with me NOT being re-tested,, i really feel like i have this beat ... i don't have the grapefruit size tumor, and i am not "full of cancer" from chest to top of head,, my outlook is VERY good...
what the doctor said was wrong ,, i'm sure he was just doing what he knows, but they missed big time with me.. i escaped with no damage, no side effects, no drugs, and no pain... radiate THAT cancer people ,, and use the Chemo on yourselves,, i was told i " NEEDED CHEMO "... no i don't
i do feel lucky about this whole deal,, i'm the lucky-ist cancer victim ever !!!... if this started in my lungs, it would have been a bigger mess.. but my tumor was visible, and touch-able - LUCKY i am ...
i knew people liked me , and that i was a "good guy " ,, but the outpouring of love & HELP has blown me away... the food angels - i don't know who all of you are , but i thank you everyday !! being able to eat my way out of cancer is pretty cool,, and free food ( my medicine) is just plain fantastic..
my old job that i retired from, they were so nice to have me back, and gave me a better job than i had in the first place. my money woes are almost over.. one more month and i should be out of debt... whew !!!
i used to be thinking comedy 110% of the day.. 24 / 7 . 365 days a year.. now its beat cancer !!,, eat correctly, exercise, think straight, and stay calm...
stay calm,,, that's a switch for me... do you remember rubber band airplanes,, the balsa wood jobs , with the wind up propeller ?? ,, have you ever wound that propeller up so tight that there are knots in the rubber band ? well that was me - for years !! wound up so tight, i had knots in my soul... and unleashing that wound up rubber band usually led to disaster. and it did - i wound myself up right into a ball of cancer...
so now i look at life differently,, what REALLY matters? what do i really need to put my energies toward ??
staying healthy - if i remain healthy , everything else will fall into place
i'm ready to see what 2013 brings
i will be 55 in june... ha ha ha .. i'm a bad ass
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