it's all behind me now

i've  been  "tomorrow-ing" ...  as in,  putting things  off till tomorrow .. a horrible thing to do.     now a bunch of little things  are a big pile of mess. 

my blog has been a victim of this too. 

this past week was one year from stepping away from the cancer industry -  refusing treatment .     now it's  August, no more  "one year ago today"  thoughts.   i know i made it , so no negative thinking about my health ever again.       sweet

i found this site a few days ago . it's kinda like a complete guide to beating cancer.. i did most of what this guy did , i didn't get on  TV , but the other stuff is similar.     if  you know someone battling cancer, or just diagnosed,   have them look at this guys site.                 http://www.chrisbeatcancer.com/    


that's it for today ,  i hope you all are eating healthy and staying positive


 

back on stage !!!!!!!!!!!

the stage  " juice ", or   buzz a performer gets , is simply the best feeling.  weather it's 15,000 people  or 8,  it's  so intoxicating.    i like  family friendly events outside, i can be my weirdo self . the kids think i'm some wacky science teacher on acid.   the  parents get a kick out of  someone their age , ( or  older  ~ 55 ), being so nutty - the  freedom they don't have in life..          

saturday a fellow comic - Gerry Gobel  and i went to "Soda - Fest"  to entertain.   what a fun and super positive  event.  some fundraisers are really  great , some seem like  big-biz scams...     this  was a Love  Fest ...  they had a cash raffle , the  person who  won , turned all the money right back into the charity..  they had a big ass TV as a prize, the winner  gave it right back too , so they could raffle it off again.  the organizers were so nice, very calm, and a pleasure to work with and meet  .. even the sound man was ultra-friendly.   i asked him to make me sound sexy, and wow ---

after our sets  i got to talk about my cancer story with a few people..   talking about correct food is invigorating , and add on the  supreme stage buzz from about 200 ppl, you could say , i was feeling  really good..   &  they  fed us BBQ !! , ( not me ) , and treated us like movie stars.  we got in the car feeling like  kings...                 

and then , as  comics , as soon as the doors shut we started ripping  apart our shows , criticizing every  part.    comics think they can and should have always done better....    applause breaks , laughter, giggling, silence -  all  so powerful

i can't wait  for  Odom Fest in september, you will hear  about that  soon

one year ago i was sick as hell from the PET scan, july 22 '12,  ,,  ...  today i am  18 lbs. lighter   , and feeling excellent. 


health report 

weight ........... 144
strength ........  very good
pain .............. teeenie  bit  - neck
attitude ......... good  , needs more stage time
overall .......... 9.3

 i know ,, my shirt isn't tucked in right , and i have  tan shoes









     
 

i feel roots

i've been reading some blogs from other cancer patients.  man was i a puss in my battle.. i whined and bitched about about stuff i had no right to.  i mentally lost it for many months, but  physically i was getting stronger from day one.     i never had any pain or discomfort from my choice of treatment.  the  side effects were better health.      now i'm all ok, no "battle" , just a continuation of a correct diet , without the cancer cloud over me.     and i'm  stronger than ever...   i let cancer eat my mind , and i'm starting to feel  my old  fire back......


man i missed  my mind

i have no complaints

i haven't written  in a few days,  you have missed nothing . 
 i'm working "shifts" , not too much stress, i enjoy being  home  

overall i'm a very happy person now.   super healthy too

last year in July was all the tests and doctor visits,   once  August comes,  "cancer" will be  one year behind me.   i don't  want to  constantly  be comparing  this  year to last year.   this  year is fantastic.......   

i'd like  more  comedy or music gigs.  they make me feel special


ZuZu  has been gone  just over one month.  i  think Bella  misses her a lot .  Heather says Bella  likes the calm ..  i haven't  figured out exactly why ZuZu  entertained me so much...i'm pretty sure she reminds me of Esperanza as a puppy.. same color , energy for days !! , and the  happy smiley face.

 here she is co-piloting..   like  Esperanza

here is one of her room mates - Roxie

 ZuZu looks like she'd  like some of that 

when i walk Bella , i think of all these fantastic things to  blog about.. then  i blank out , and post nothing ......  i hope to get back  writing almost everyday.  


 one of the nice people at Pogues said she read my entire  blog in one day  (  5  1/2  hours )...  eeeek 

 clarification - all the people at Pogues are nice , one of them read the whole thing 

   chasing carrots is  wacky ,  Costco has the best deal  10 lbs 6.99  = 70  cents a lb..   kroger's "organic" if you believe  it to be , are  88 cents a  lb.              organic carrots at Pogues are  1.36  a pound..  at  40 pounds a week, this price  difference  adds up  ~  per year
 costco is on the way to work, and it's a 14 minute stop, i get broccoli and avocados there too..  pretty harmless, and the cashiers know why i'm buying all the  carrots, so i get a good up lifting buzz from that...    Kroger is a nightmare , my local one seems all beat up,  and they don't have stuff frequently.  it's really close , 3 minutes there  , 8 minutes to shop , 3 minutes  back,  but it's an  icky  experience most times.  Kroger has apples cheaper too.      Pogues is fantastic !!!  it's almost like getting off stage  , the wonderful  feeling i get there.  i get almost everything from Pogues,  it is also really close .      and the ride across 10th street is always entertaining   . i go to Pogues 3 to 5 times a week.



blabbitty  blabbitty boo


that's all  folks   

oh that feels  good.........................

more smiles , more love , more hugs

July 2nd, last year i got the  "you have cancer call"

**** 12 month review

i'm super smiley , healthy as ever,  in no pain,  & cancer free.

i've lost  17 lbs, all of it  "bad weight" , i'm a constant 146.

when i got the "call"  , i kinda went  nuts,  the blog can confirm that .

having health insurance ( and everyone will be forced to have soon ) got me introduced to the Cancer Industry. The  doctors and nurses do want to help , they studied for years, and are skilled professionals .  But they are bound by what the Insurance & Cancer Industry  dictates . i refused the  3 choices , surgery , radiation , and chemotherapy.  i didn't believe those would  help me.  i also didn't like the experience of the cancer center.   my ranting  against the  cancer industry was just my opinion,  and i apologize for hurting anyone by that. 

some people say i'm an inspiration.  i really don't see it as such.  i got sick, researched the treatments , chose one that i believed in, stuck to it !! and it worked.   kinda  simple

my treatment tasted really good 

 but not covered by health insurance,  shucks 

and actually -  physically , nothing ever bad happened the entire time.  i started feeling better immediately after switching to the correct diet ( july 2nd -   alkaline foods) .

what got me was the mental side of it.. that's why i started the blog.   if i didn't let all this out , it would have tuned into more poison against me ..   The  -    "you have cancer and it's gonna kill you"  is what is played over  and over and over & over , in all the medias.  you can't get away from it                          
pink

it WAS a roller coaster, and i got to the end with both hands up & laughing.  but there's no way i'm getting back on.  and the line  keeps getting longer

i used the paddle ball as a metaphor.  whap whap whap, the ball is cancer thoughts and the paddle is my  brain.  even if you can have some  no cancer thoughts,  the ball is attached, and soon enough ,  bam  bam bam  , cancer , cancer , cancer , bam bam bam cancer cancer cancer ..  all day all night .           lucky for me it was all in my head

what  did  i learn ???
*  my body is stronger than my mind
*  positive thoughts bring more positive actions
*  love is the answer, and people are full of it
*  simplicity is the cure all
*  if you ask for  help , people will

how much did it cost ?
 **  between $500 and $700 a month ,  all food , no medicine

and  how  do i feel now ...........  zippety-do-da !!  heels clicking together, two thumbs  up, and a smile so big it  hurts.

summing  up .  i can't  advise  people to do what i've  done.  i can encourage them to  research the different treatment options and choose one they believe in.  

i'm really happy i chose my path, beside the mental  funk , which was self induced,  my life  got better daily and still is .

the prayers  and positive energy that people shared with me  were also a big part of healing.    i thank you all



if you ever want to donate $   to a "cancer cause",  instead of giving it away to  "The Cause" ,   give that $  directly to a cancer patient.       they are everywhere, and you probably know one right now...................         it will help so much more , and immediately


here's my motto ..  i say this at the end of my show .. 



be nice 
to as many people as you can
as often as you can
it's absolutely free
i'll be nice to you 
and you'll be nice to me
and just like tag
if we start tonight 
tomorrow will be a better world

                                                                         ding !



 

    

                   
   

 

end of June

thank  you again , food  angel.

last night  i had  2 shows,  the early one was  a benefit show, full of love.  i had a great time, super uplifting. 

drove right to the  2nd show ,  sports bar  , music  & comedy. 

what a difference !!!   i had another great time, but  the "love"  level was much lower in the bar,, as should be expected...  

the place was really  big,  maybe 100 ppl spread about.  it's funny to me, that one group of audience can love ya, and 20 feet away,  another group is planning a gang style  "Jump In".

i know  that i "was in their bar" , but  come on, a small amount of common courtesy , just once won't kill  you.

one guy at the bar kept yelling out,   so i told  him,,  "hey - just like  when your wife is talking to you , and you don't pay attention and just sit there,  try that with me " .. 

i usually power through "comments" , but this guy needed some feedback..

last year at this  time  i was waiting on the biopsy  results.

what a year it's been

i want to thank you all for the positive thoughts, vibes , prayers, and well-wishes .  i'm two thumbs  up  because of you all

see you in july !

time passes along

a few  days ago it was  my birthday.  55 .  yowza !!     i still feel like a kid.  i'm in the best  health ever , so the future should be wide open.    i had an interesting year

Bella  misses  ZuZu,  me too.   i'm watching her progress on facepoop.   she looks  pretty happy.

now that     "fight cancer"   isn't  repeating over and over & over and over,  i feel like i have  some free time.

i'm not feeling super creative though.  i feel good relaxing, and  getting better at guitar.

my goal of the everyday is to stay relaxed, don't stress, be smiley and eat right

here's my smirk face ......

  feeling good about  what  i  did 


health report 

weight ....................146
strength.................. better still
attitude ..................  confused
pain .......................   none
overall ..................  8.7