i quit drinking

8688  days ago ,,   (23 years 9 months 19 days)  ..   i was a problem drinker - 2 weeks after my first beer. it was  obvious   ..................

 i had a few really bad events  with alcohol  .. i  had "quit  drinking"   2 previous times - 3rd time was the charm ..

 i was a happy  drunk , i made people  laugh.. i blacked out  a lot - so i knew  i could  only drink with supervision..

even  being LEGAL - alcohol was  very bad for me..

so the last & final time i quit .. i went to an AA meeting , 1988.. day  #1 meeting #1 ,,,  it was scary .. everybody was smoking, and everybody had big coffee mugs,, there was 3 coffee machines on..

   i  thought to myself -- wow ...these people are  wasted on coffee & cigs..  ( my coffee addiction had not started yet , i don't smoke ) ..  the stories i heard were tragic, i knew i had a drinking problem , but my "life" was  a-ok..  i didn't like  that meeting ..    
           .......  day  2 meeting #2 , at a church... ,,  no smoking , lots  of coffee,, but the person said i had NO chance of making it ,, with out   the  God she  preferred . ...  the stories were tragic there too...  people at each meeting talked about  having a "slip-up"  where they had  a drink ,,  i was  new, this was a bad thing,,,,,   both places stressed a MEETING every day.. i could see how that would be good.....    i didn't like either of the  meetings ..  i can stop drinking on my own  forever , no problem.....      i am 30 years old

no drinks ,,,,,,,, 5000 days later ,, meeting # 3,,  i had a bad mental hit , and thought i'd better just check in...   the meeting was  different ,, NO smoking ,  and i loved coffee now..  and ANYthing that helped you not drink was ok,,  if a spoon helped you not  drink, well OK !!! ,, i liked this meeting ,, it was  about   not  drinking ,, how-ever possible ,, don't  drink

 they said i was a drunk - who didn't drink,,                          because i didn't go to meetings...  and it was a miracle  that i had not  drank,,   no  "slips"... 

i had  NO alcohol, no toothpaste, no cough syrup,  no alcohol medicine,, no alcohol in my food,  no vanilla in my  coffee,, nothing ..    i am the ..

"one match in the fire-works  factory "  type....  

 "one's too  many , and  a thousands not enough"

i'm addicted to excess....   it's  a balancing act..   i fell.   my teeter totter tipped

so NO I HAVE CANCER,, i went to  2  meetings , ( doctor  opinions) ,, i didn't like them ,  so i'm going on my  own,, i'll see them for meeting # 3  in 61 days...  

so i feel like ........          "  i'm the cancer victim who doesn't do "treatment"  "  to  them ..

i am  gonna blow their minds  with my progress.. 
and my worst  "side effect" ... kinda gross,,
                orange skid marks ,  at first ,,,,,,,,,, i've  got a handle on it now.. 
blogs  should be truthful

                  i don't  have a feeding tube  stuck in me,, and this is day 3 of  radiation i didn't do,,
32 more ,, ( + 5 )  = 37  , because i refused the tonsil removal,,, ..............................
 8 weeks of  NOT  going to get  microwaved...  and then  feeling  "fried"  all day ..  no "driving,, to get cooked"   everyday... 


tomorrow i'll post  some  time line  pics,,  and  you'll see what i'm talking about


i used to love being alive,, and now i do even more,   the food  has  me feeling so good,,

ok, have  fun