yesterday i was an emotional mess,, caused by stress - my biggest enemy..
the future is not written,,, a good statement , ( and a great movie about Joe Strummer ) ... anyway ...
i got myself swirled up in stressing out about a possible January event.. what a dumbass i am... some nice talk with some great people un-did my terror.. i will most likely not try to do the NYC trip,,, it would be great to go and speak about my "battle" , but it's a lot of different things would have to "line up " to make the trip do-able ,,, basically 4 days of travel & lodging for an 8 minute presentation ...
i'm still trying to dig out of my $$ hole, so i should probably concentrate on local things that will not cost me any additional funds that i don't really have ...
at work last night, one of the regular racers / comedy fans, came in... he hadn't seen me since May,, he knew i "retired" in june, and was surprised to see me there,, "you're back " he said ,,, then from about 15 feet away he added,, "" wow , have you been on vacation or something ? You look fantastic,, are you getting some sun from somewhere?,,"" he knew of my old neck issues, and asked how that was going... then i told him about the cancer ... ""Whaaaaaaat !!,,, no way "".. i gave him the quick story,, the good vibes flowing off him made me fell so good... this guy has a great spirit, you just feel good talking to him, he's one of those people... the boost in my whole attitude from talking with him, erased all the trama i put on my self earlier in the day ,,, a good dose of "tumor-be-gone",,,
the ' kicker' was him saying -- ""you need to tell people about this,,, this could be something big "" ,,,
and then the NYC trip went "ding" , in my head..
i got another call from one of my dear friends, she's a my blog reader,, and she might be able to get me a place to stay, right downtown in Manhattan... with her nephew..
i'll decide on the NYC deal in a day or two, i need to get a few more details worked out..... the easiest , less stress full thing to do would be "forget about it" for january, and try to get in another one , in the future.. bam , done deal, stress is gone,, focus on food & vitamins, relax
D W - ( darrell waltrip , nascar racer) had many "sayings" ,, one of them --- "95 % of what you worry about DOESN'T happen --- stay cool , it will be OK"
today is another great day in my life , #1 - i am alive and feel great , #2 so many people are helping me with this cancer battle, #3 i feel great,, and can work , eat , and poop normally .............. " winning "
ok that's it for now,, all positive , all good
here is a pic of my extensive work out gear..
and we will end today with these words ......
super , fantastic, wonderful, bliss, sunny, cheer, grace, gratitude, excited, thankful , appreciate , kindness, love, happiness, warm, calm, sincere, humble
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