last blog 2014

the end of the year . and what a year it was.. 

i'm not gonna sign the new agreement for facebook for a couple of weeks.   i get TONS of love from my facboogie friends, but it is mostly a time waster.   i don't  "use it" correctly. 

so please subscribe to my blog, most people get it from faceboogie , but i wont be able to put it on there myself. 

year end review

weight                 144  !
strength                 45%
attitude                 NEW & improved
pain                     jaw mild to severe
outlook                positive , slowly improving

i want to say THANK YOU to all of you , this year was a doosey, and without your help, i would have died.  it was close, those tumors were gonna get me.    you all really stepped up in many ways, the fund, the constant "well wishes",  the  11:11 gang, and good vibes sent have carried me through this very challenging adventure

 
you can e-mail me direct if you need to contact me
 
positivemolecules@sbcglobal.net

the main thing i learned during the last few years is that LOVE is the most important thing ...  giving it away is #1,  receiving LOVE keeps people alive & well.   LOVE beats everything.

ok have a great new year,,  i'll be OFF faceboogie for two weeks minimum..  i dont know if my account will go dark . 

one last time in 2014 ---  thank you!!!!!
 

positive stuff for sure

just a quick all positive stuff...  

 and  some  things i measure..
  
weight 136 *   up from 125.8 on 10-23-14    ..........PLUS 10

how far i can open my  mouth    84 playing cards  , 
on 10 /23 i could only open   42 cards   .............DOUBLE

strength  , many measurements ,
 last week i was at about 30 % , this week  ~ 40 %.......+ 10

i was doing my weights empty handed, i then moved to 3 lbs, now i'm using 5 lbs, ............................................increase !!
 
i'm at  30 minutes on the bike,and doing stretches at the same time    ........................................................increase!!

 4 sets of P.T. for both my neck and mouth  ......feels great

crunches -  used to do 200  / up to 150, from 25 ......... + 125

weaned off the narcotics, from 8 + a day to zero, it took 5 weeks,, the zombie effect is wearing off ...............  SUPER !

the feeding tube is removed,, it took 3 seconds, no pain ! now i can get back to my core exercises and gain some muscle weight ........ been waiting for this   +++++++

the SS Office sent me a letter saying my application is moving forward. they included more papers to fill out.. so not  denied ......................... this is fantastic

started juicing carrots & apples again yesterday ,  now that my throat works.. i still can't chew, so the VitaMix is making everything into a soup.. 

the BILLS are coming in, health insurance is covering about 96 % so far,  i will have a specific blog about this when they all are in..   

no bad events  have happened since the operation,, 

my skin graft area on my leg is about 75 % completely healed

the skin graft area on my neck is turning the same color as my neck, and the blood crustys are almost all gone

i'm setting realistic daily goals , and getting them done

i went to the movies for the first time in 14 years, the theater had big ass lazyboy chairs, and the movie was entertaining, i was invited out by one of my superfriends.... big fun!

i was able to sell my "too heavy" fender amp, and found the "one" i was wanting all along..   .............Y A Y !!!!

i am staying calm,, not like those annoying t shirts,, yeah stay calm ............ i'm trying to stay positive, you guys are really helping me  with this.................. thank you !!!

have a super holiday also

 







 
   
  

this guy is always asking for something

i know i ask for lots of help, and you wonderful people have all stepped up and kept me alive.

i'm asking for more help.  i applied for S.S. benefits on monday. 

if you could please send some positive vibes to the  social security administration to help me get approved

if you repeat this out loud or just in your mind, i think they will all add up and get me that extra push to approval

here's the mantra

  --  social security administration- please approve otto for his disability claim  --

i've launched that thought, and if we all add to it , i think it will land in the right place


the gal on monday said she "thought " that i'd be approved,, so we need to push that thought all the way to positively approved

cancer seems to be the magic word,, and i'm not faking it.


it's a fund we all pay into each paycheck, i've been paying 38 years..


ok !!!!!!  thanks  for helping me again

i found some blogs i started

it's been almost a month, sorry for the absence . i am slowly healing.  it's only been 40 days since surgery, and compared to what happened to me , and how i look now it is a miracle.   the surgeon did  a great job.  I've had 3 re-checks, and am healing  ahead of schedule..   

as a kid , you become friends with your shadow,  some kids are scared, i always enjoyed having mine around..  then it got real crazy, the months before surgery..check it out.., i could not get away from the tumor ..

the knob was gruesome,,i can barely remember having it now..

and i've gone from this --

  the staples are still in, neck patch still on,  to this

neck starting to look normal, almost all the blood crustys have fallen off, and the skin graft is starting to  change color like my neck.  staples scar is healing really nice,  i weigh 131..

i am 4 days into NOT using the feeding tube.  after 2 weeks of not using it, i can have it removed.  i can't do my "core" exercises with this stuck in me.
my restrictions about mobility and weight lifting have been removed.  so now i can get as fit as possible as soon as i can .. 

the new challenge is eating..  you take it for granted, just popping something into your mouth and chewing away..  so  do I ..  what i have started doing is making a bowl of food like i used to,, throw it into the VitaMix, and turn it into a soup..  this takes about 2 hours  to eat, and some bites are pain off the chart!!  i don't have anything else to do , and this is a "must do" physical therapy.   when i left the hospital, i could only open my mouth as wide as 40 playing cards, yesterday i was up to 70, a hard boiled egg is wider than 2 decks of cards,  so i've got some work ahead of me.

i wasn't expecting such a painful new deal.  before all the pains were from the outside moving in. now , i'm in no real pain until food time.It's inside my face, back by my right jaw..   it can be minimal to 12+ , i don't know , there is one super sensitive spot, and how the food passes over this area can differ from minute to minute.  i haven't chewed anything since  october 15th,  and then didn't swallow anything until october 28th. So  now i have  to get  back to eating  5 big ass bowls of food a day again.  this is not gonna be easy.  my face nerves are on fire frequently also.. the skin graft area on my leg is doing great.

my only "real job",besides healing,  is actually writing this blob,, keeping you all informed.. without you all , i would not  be doing this well.  My sister set the fund up, and it hit the goal.  i am LOVING  not working.  i have another 6 weeks off if everything  gos right.  not having to go to work in the  winter is really nice.  

in the upcoming blobs, i will tell of my hospital stay, and other stuff we haven't talked about.

health report

strength         30 %
pain               spikes when eating, jaw is numb
attitude         new month, new agenda , A+
weight          132..  i am adding "real" food daily

 

look at this !!

 are you believer ? do you believe in something you can't see , can't touch , can't alter , of course you do, and good thing too.  remember the blob ?  well lookie now ,, this has to heal

,, whew ,  that needs a band aid

Quickie up-date

welcome back .....................October  27th.

well i "thought" id be  blogging like a hurricane as soon as i got home ( the 22nd ) but it took a few days to catch up on faceboogie,  and i was really sore.. 

so here is a quickie update just "so you know" 

everything went really well. 

i'm still hurting, as expected , but it's pain from the procedures, not  from the cancer... how i was working ,and trying to be  a normal person in September is  mind boggling.  The days in October , leading up to the surgery, were like many episodes of Rod Serling's show -" Night Gallery" 

ok that's it for today .  i'm pretty THIN ~  131 lbs

it's ALL good  ,, detailed blog very soon . and here's a current photo 

             you have a fun filled day , it's gonna be the LAST  warm  day of the year

tell your friends that LOVE , Prayer , and positive vibes  work.....  ding !   

today is the day

                                        next monday

                                          check out the neck aug 2013

                              THiS  is a smile ,, get to working on yours 










                               and then there's this 

                         Oh yeah,,,    i'm  looking at  you



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                                 i'm in the hospital, 
                        thanks  for the good Vibes, 
                              be back soon

                                                             ding