you should get re-tested........

 one of  the best thanksgivings ever,,, it looked all so good , i got to eat what i brought , and  a few veggie dishes.  it was rubbery.

my dad wants me to get re-tested , to make sure it hasn't spread,,, that would be a PET scan , or a CT scan

the PET scan is a NO WAY EVER !!!  

the CT scan , is also not as mild as most people think,  and i'd have to take  2 different drugs before the scan, so it doesn't hurt me .. i am allergic to Iodine... yay.. 

here's what i am up against 

iodine-based Contrast Materials

Mild reactions include:

• nausea and vomiting
• headache
• itching
• flushing
• mild skin rash or hives

Moderate reactions include:

• severe skin rash or hives
• wheezing
• abnormal heart rhythms
• high or low blood pressure
• shortness of breath or difficulty breathing

Severe reactions include:

• difficulty breathing
• cardiac arrest
• swelling of the throat or other parts of the body
• convulsions
• profound low blood pressure

nice list eh?

i am allergic to iodine , and this test puts it in me ..   eeek X 2..  i ended up in the hospital before , from Iodine Reaction,, ...................plate of shrimp ..

 i had one (  CT )  in july , it didn't  effect me like the pet scan, but  my mind was super  blown  from the   recent cancer diagnosis,,  dang

bummer ,, personally ,, i want to be done with the cancer  "doctors" ,, i don't ever want to see them again..

i feel great , i look great ( that's what everyone's telling me ) .. my  tumor , which seemed to be a big deal,, is so close to being GONE...  

more frustration , thanks CANCER ,   i've  had  it up to my neck with you !!



this kinda knocked the nice showbiz buzz i had from tonight's show...

oh well,,  more tomorrow

thanksgiving 2012

30 days till "dooms-day" if you believe in that  kind of stuff,, there is not too much chatter about the  end of the world on the web,, with only one month to go...  hmm,,  

oh boy , that internet !!!  what a crazy place....  i like some of the internet,, for fact finding, which can be hard , with all the  incorrect stuff out there.. what CAN  you believe???

the internet helped me in my info quest about cancer  treatment.. so 2 thumbs up for that.. 

as i dug into my research,,  food & vitamins  seemed to be the best   way to fight cancer.. and it has proven true - to me - so far

it's exciting to want to "get home"  -   to  eat ,, i bring some  food everywhere , but to eat at home is the best.       i got  close to 150#  most of the week

i hope  people are careful with their dogs today , that  T-Day meal is so dangerous in many different ways..  fruits, creams, BONES, ,,, and  overeating ...  ...we have  Mung beans..  the dogs are not interested

i'm thankful to  be so alive 



overall score   9.3

 

warm & fuzzy

two days from thanksgiving, oh my am i grateful  to be where i am.

so many people have helped me , i am Mr Lucky for sure

 to be feeling like this, ( fantastic) , is  a miracle.     the mental dump my brain  took in july was  a deep pit..   the dreaded  C word - on me .. whoa.......

to "walk away" from  treatment , to me, was a no option choice,,  some people think i'm super-brave , or  "have  HUGE balls",, but i'm just a chicken shit like everybody  else..  i want an easy, pain free life.  i want to be happy.    my life as i knew it was going to be drasticly altered..   i couldn't  "sign up" for that...   

 i  had a choice,,        A.  -  what 99.99 % of people do ,
 or  B.  -  take a "chance" and do what i believe in .. 

the  "chance" was backed up by lots  of  data , so it wasn't that much of a leap..  not that brave.. 

well, happy thanksgiving everyone,, be with friends, family & loved ones if you can  . 
i'm lucky to still have  my giant family , hollidays are great .

this year's  menu will be different  for me that's for sure


one  my examples about my "diet" is ... , i say -

 after i eat , i am energized !!!! like  bam! let's get it  going !!!, and then, think of Thanksgiving dinner,, after that meal , everyone is passed out,,  




 

  

it took 2 days to write this ??

this might sound horrible,, but it seems true...

"Cancer - the best thing that's ever happened  to me"

i've said  " that "  before,  and   i got a good slap in the face with reality ,, super-tuned everything going inside me , haven't missed a single workout,  got a great attitude adjustment,,  but the best thing about this "deal" is  how people are giving me so much love , kindness , & good vibes,,   and $  too !!!!

i couldn't have made it this far without the  generous donations directly to me.. i'm overwhelmed by the kindness i've received..   i'm pretty hard on myself, i think i'm a looser most of the time, i can't get a handle on why so many people want to help me. 

at this point in my life  ( 54 yrs old) , i'm in the last third of my life..  i would not have wanted this cancer thing to happen to me when i was  20 ,,i would not have been  mentally able to handle this  back then..
Now,, being  older &  wiser, this was at first a REAL bummer , but now it's more of an inconvenience ..     .....the drag,  is the constant - " ya got cancer",, that repeats over and over, in your head , the food prep , and  eating right is a pleasure.        the exercise is minimal, and it also is a feel good  activity..    so everything's  good - except my own mind ,,    but compared to july ,   wow !  what a fantastic change for the better

i was blessed with another  donation this weekend!!! and then  today at Pogues,, holy cow --  another GIFT CARD miracle

THANK YOU  !!!   ......  not worrying  about proper food is such a relief... 

ok  , outside i go,  &  my  show is tonight !! 

report ...

feeling ...........   really good
weight          ......148.4
attitude         ..... super 
strength        .....  bad -ass
tumor           ......  smaller  & easier to wiggle
over all         ......  9.4 
 

my tumor got punched in the face

i had a blast on stage thursday  night.  really fun, although it was a smoking venue - eeeeeeeeek - but  they let me go up first , so i could get out of there . almost wanted  to burn the clothes.. 
s t i n k y !!

my "fire " about being alive  feels  wonderful..  people who see me once in a while are commenting on how much better  i look  - each time !!

the energy and nice  feeling from a packed house is just fantastic..tonight in Metamora , sold  out , SRO , wonderful group of people..  the tumor took a beating from the laughs & applause .. 

i'm  pretty fried so this might be short & jumbled in thought.

here is Zuzu making a seat out of Bella 

                       Bella                                            Zuzu

                                            clearly a  "seat " 

Bella is thinking,,, get this little crazy train off me ........
Zuzu is thinking ,,   what ??  i'm not doing  nothing

Bella is so nice , she weighs 45 , and  Zuzu weighs 27.. they are  equal in strength.. Zuzu is crazy as hell, Bella is calm and relaxed.
they get along  wonderfully .. they  snuggle up on each side of me , i feel so loved 

well that's it for tonight 

no supreme words of wisdom today.. 
although Mr Fong told me once,,,   "yu want gud week, buy 10 fortune cookies - keep the best  7" 

more fluff & ho hum

and i'm feeling  even better than last week,,  this is  great , i'm not sure how good i will feel in 3 weeks , but it's gonna be on the  fantastic scale...   like  fantastic 3.4

i had to kind of  go "budget"  on  the last 6 days  of food,, not as much leafy greens , and fresh veggies  as i wanted.. we  had  lots  of  beans & quinoa ...   beans are inexpensive and good  for  me , i cook 2 cup batches ( 4 days worth of  yield) , and season each batch differently.  NO  "boring"  food around here !!...  our garden is still producing leaf lettuce in large amounts,  so it's  back on for the greens !!! 

today's catch ...... just picked leaf lettuce, carmelized sweet onions, carrots, cilantro, hot yellow potatoes, cucumbers, cherry tomatoes .  hemp oil for  dressing, on a 14 inch plate .........   a  ( big salad) 

 more good vibes keep flowing my way , so i must thank you all for reading my rants, and staying on my positive team..

i've had a few thoughts about , "what  if" i kept this whole deal private, and i'm certain that i would not be  healing as well on my own ..  by that i mean , without  all the  love i'm getting , and positive  energies from you all ..    we are still "on our own"  ~ doctor wise.. they are waiting on the sidelines, and they aren't gonna get play in this game .. 


compared to  july / august , when i was pretty much collapsing , my life is 98% back on track / normal   .. my "earth job"  ( the  job that pays most of my bills ) is better than it was before i retired.. apparently - i did more than i thought - when i was working, and they chopped up all those  duties between many people.   So now i get to "manage" and help in all areas, instead of being "locked" in one area... plus,,,,,,  way less stress than before...  

Special  thanks  to my friendly comedian friends, they are booking me in their shows .  i really like  having  at least 
14 or more shows a month.. the  stage energy is very healing..  "with every laugh - a cancer cell dies" - is working  out nicely,,  and that's  14 nights that i'm not home  being the "cancer-guy"

my hand and arm pains are not even thought about anymore.  my neck  has full mobility,  it still crunches and creaks, but it doesn't hurt,,   my lower back , L-3, ruptured in 1985, that pain is not around either..    now,, the  pain in my ass....... ME ......or,,,  my brain,  my constant battle to keep thinking correctly - is a daily / hourly deal...    i must remember , RIGHT across ,or "next to", any bad  thoughts / ideas , is a fantastic memory that has easy access .

i like cleaning stuff,, it's a good activity for me , instant results, and there's always MORE  to do..  after cleaning,  i don't feel guilty about playing guitar for hours - which is very important-   i've gotta keep my hands in shape & keep writing new stuff, when the comedy brain isn't producing "gold" ,,or even mediocre  crap.......

i had a sleepy day in the sun  with the dogs,, just having them next to me is a wonderful feeling,, nice and warm, they are  happy all the time, and that soaks into me . the Humor factor they produce is also really great.. Zuzu , the little one, likes to SIT ON Bella,, on her face , neck, legs, body , it doesn't matter where they are ,  Zuzu is on top of Bella,, like the small fish that clings onto a big shark, they are always together ..  it's a dang love fest around here!!


well ok, that was all useless info, but that's how i feel today , and you got to read about it....... 

health report

weight             148.4     the  beans put a few #'s on
tumor size        "holding" at very small
attitude            really good
strength            ever improving
overall              9.4 

i'm booked on December 21st,,  2012  if the world  DOES end, i'll be on stage, laughing about it
              

bacon toast with sugar

"generally speaking" ,, MANY / most -  stage  4 cancer patients, die within 18 months,, with "treatment"  or  without.. that is  a statistical fact..    and  with "treatment" , many of those  18 months are not the best "quality of life" .. 

i'm  5 months after diagnosis,, i feel really good, my body is intact, i'm not suffering  from my cancer battle physically ,, mentally - yes, but i've got a good handle on that now..

i'm  doing the  Gerson Therapy,, 70 years  of proven success . 

with food  & vitamins, if it takes  up to 2 years to become "cancer free" , and i get to feel like this the whole time- ,, well,,, winner winner - chicken dinner ,,,  that's   24 months  of feeling great, compared  to a hopeful 18 months , with the  bad side effects starting  immediately , when traditional treatment starts,,  

to me , i still think i am WAY ahead , and i'm quite  happy about it

i feel good , and i'm HAPPY  about my treatment,, not bad for a cancer patient............

two thumbs up , hell yeaaah !! fantastico ,  wunderbar,, top shelf, that's how i feel about this whole deal now,,   i'm strong , confident, and  ready to take on anything..

my passion for life  "meter" is pegged .. i want to live long time, smiling, joking, and playing music...      

not too much can get me down now,,,  cancer - schmantzer .. what else you got ,,,  traffic troubles?, line too long at the grocery?, cell phone dropped in the toilet?,  guitar string breaks? dog chewed up your schedule book? ,,  

"it's all in yo head"  -   that  madness,   


if anyone  asks------------  i'm feeling great ,, pass it  on