just a quick all positive stuff...
and some things i measure..
weight 136 * up from 125.8 on 10-23-14 ..........PLUS 10
how far i can open my mouth 84 playing cards ,
on 10 /23 i could only open 42 cards .............DOUBLE
strength , many measurements ,
last week i was at about 30 % , this week ~ 40 %.......+ 10
i was doing my weights empty handed, i then moved to 3 lbs, now i'm using 5 lbs, ............................................increase !!
i'm at 30 minutes on the bike,and doing stretches at the same time ........................................................increase!!
4 sets of P.T. for both my neck and mouth ......feels great
crunches - used to do 200 / up to 150, from 25 ......... + 125
weaned off the narcotics, from 8 + a day to zero, it took 5 weeks,, the zombie effect is wearing off ............... SUPER !
the feeding tube is removed,, it took 3 seconds, no pain ! now i can get back to my core exercises and gain some muscle weight ........ been waiting for this +++++++
the SS Office sent me a letter saying my application is moving forward. they included more papers to fill out.. so not denied ......................... this is fantastic
started juicing carrots & apples again yesterday , now that my throat works.. i still can't chew, so the VitaMix is making everything into a soup..
the BILLS are coming in, health insurance is covering about 96 % so far, i will have a specific blog about this when they all are in..
no bad events have happened since the operation,,
my skin graft area on my leg is about 75 % completely healed
the skin graft area on my neck is turning the same color as my neck, and the blood crustys are almost all gone
i'm setting realistic daily goals , and getting them done
i went to the movies for the first time in 14 years, the theater had big ass lazyboy chairs, and the movie was entertaining, i was invited out by one of my superfriends.... big fun!
i was able to sell my "too heavy" fender amp, and found the "one" i was wanting all along.. .............Y A Y !!!!
i am staying calm,, not like those annoying t shirts,, yeah stay calm ............ i'm trying to stay positive, you guys are really helping me with this.................. thank you !!!
have a super holiday also
Friday, December 12, 2014
Wednesday, December 10, 2014
this guy is always asking for something
i know i ask for lots of help, and you wonderful people have all stepped up and kept me alive.
i'm asking for more help. i applied for S.S. benefits on monday.
if you could please send some positive vibes to the social security administration to help me get approved
if you repeat this out loud or just in your mind, i think they will all add up and get me that extra push to approval
here's the mantra
-- social security administration- please approve otto for his disability claim --
i've launched that thought, and if we all add to it , i think it will land in the right place
the gal on monday said she "thought " that i'd be approved,, so we need to push that thought all the way to positively approved
cancer seems to be the magic word,, and i'm not faking it.
it's a fund we all pay into each paycheck, i've been paying 38 years..
ok !!!!!! thanks for helping me again
i'm asking for more help. i applied for S.S. benefits on monday.
if you could please send some positive vibes to the social security administration to help me get approved
if you repeat this out loud or just in your mind, i think they will all add up and get me that extra push to approval
here's the mantra
-- social security administration- please approve otto for his disability claim --
i've launched that thought, and if we all add to it , i think it will land in the right place
the gal on monday said she "thought " that i'd be approved,, so we need to push that thought all the way to positively approved
cancer seems to be the magic word,, and i'm not faking it.
it's a fund we all pay into each paycheck, i've been paying 38 years..
ok !!!!!! thanks for helping me again
Tuesday, December 2, 2014
i found some blogs i started
it's been almost a month, sorry for the absence . i am slowly healing. it's only been 40 days since surgery, and compared to what happened to me , and how i look now it is a miracle. the surgeon did a great job. I've had 3 re-checks, and am healing ahead of schedule..
as a kid , you become friends with your shadow, some kids are scared, i always enjoyed having mine around.. then it got real crazy, the months before surgery..check it out.., i could not get away from the tumor ..
the knob was gruesome,,i can barely remember having it now..
and i've gone from this --
the staples are still in, neck patch still on, to this
neck starting to look normal, almost all the blood crustys have fallen off, and the skin graft is starting to change color like my neck. staples scar is healing really nice, i weigh 131..
i am 4 days into NOT using the feeding tube. after 2 weeks of not using it, i can have it removed. i can't do my "core" exercises with this stuck in me.
my restrictions about mobility and weight lifting have been removed. so now i can get as fit as possible as soon as i can ..
the new challenge is eating.. you take it for granted, just popping something into your mouth and chewing away.. so do I .. what i have started doing is making a bowl of food like i used to,, throw it into the VitaMix, and turn it into a soup.. this takes about 2 hours to eat, and some bites are pain off the chart!! i don't have anything else to do , and this is a "must do" physical therapy. when i left the hospital, i could only open my mouth as wide as 40 playing cards, yesterday i was up to 70, a hard boiled egg is wider than 2 decks of cards, so i've got some work ahead of me.
i wasn't expecting such a painful new deal. before all the pains were from the outside moving in. now , i'm in no real pain until food time.It's inside my face, back by my right jaw.. it can be minimal to 12+ , i don't know , there is one super sensitive spot, and how the food passes over this area can differ from minute to minute. i haven't chewed anything since october 15th, and then didn't swallow anything until october 28th. So now i have to get back to eating 5 big ass bowls of food a day again. this is not gonna be easy. my face nerves are on fire frequently also.. the skin graft area on my leg is doing great.
my only "real job",besides healing, is actually writing this blob,, keeping you all informed.. without you all , i would not be doing this well. My sister set the fund up, and it hit the goal. i am LOVING not working. i have another 6 weeks off if everything gos right. not having to go to work in the winter is really nice.
in the upcoming blobs, i will tell of my hospital stay, and other stuff we haven't talked about.
health report
strength 30 %
pain spikes when eating, jaw is numb
attitude new month, new agenda , A+
weight 132.. i am adding "real" food daily
as a kid , you become friends with your shadow, some kids are scared, i always enjoyed having mine around.. then it got real crazy, the months before surgery..check it out.., i could not get away from the tumor ..
and i've gone from this --
i am 4 days into NOT using the feeding tube. after 2 weeks of not using it, i can have it removed. i can't do my "core" exercises with this stuck in me.
my restrictions about mobility and weight lifting have been removed. so now i can get as fit as possible as soon as i can ..
the new challenge is eating.. you take it for granted, just popping something into your mouth and chewing away.. so do I .. what i have started doing is making a bowl of food like i used to,, throw it into the VitaMix, and turn it into a soup.. this takes about 2 hours to eat, and some bites are pain off the chart!! i don't have anything else to do , and this is a "must do" physical therapy. when i left the hospital, i could only open my mouth as wide as 40 playing cards, yesterday i was up to 70, a hard boiled egg is wider than 2 decks of cards, so i've got some work ahead of me.
i wasn't expecting such a painful new deal. before all the pains were from the outside moving in. now , i'm in no real pain until food time.It's inside my face, back by my right jaw.. it can be minimal to 12+ , i don't know , there is one super sensitive spot, and how the food passes over this area can differ from minute to minute. i haven't chewed anything since october 15th, and then didn't swallow anything until october 28th. So now i have to get back to eating 5 big ass bowls of food a day again. this is not gonna be easy. my face nerves are on fire frequently also.. the skin graft area on my leg is doing great.
my only "real job",besides healing, is actually writing this blob,, keeping you all informed.. without you all , i would not be doing this well. My sister set the fund up, and it hit the goal. i am LOVING not working. i have another 6 weeks off if everything gos right. not having to go to work in the winter is really nice.
in the upcoming blobs, i will tell of my hospital stay, and other stuff we haven't talked about.
health report
strength 30 %
pain spikes when eating, jaw is numb
attitude new month, new agenda , A+
weight 132.. i am adding "real" food daily
Wednesday, October 29, 2014
look at this !!
are you believer ? do you believe in something you can't see , can't touch , can't alter , of course you do, and good thing too. remember the blob ? well lookie now ,, this has to heal
,, whew , that needs a band aid
Monday, October 27, 2014
Quickie up-date
welcome back .....................October 27th.
well i "thought" id be blogging like a hurricane as soon as i got home ( the 22nd ) but it took a few days to catch up on faceboogie, and i was really sore..
so here is a quickie update just "so you know"
everything went really well.
i'm still hurting, as expected , but it's pain from the procedures, not from the cancer... how i was working ,and trying to be a normal person in September is mind boggling. The days in October , leading up to the surgery, were like many episodes of Rod Serling's show -" Night Gallery"
ok that's it for today . i'm pretty THIN ~ 131 lbs
it's ALL good ,, detailed blog very soon . and here's a current photo
you have a fun filled day , it's gonna be the LAST warm day of the year
tell your friends that LOVE , Prayer , and positive vibes work..... ding !
well i "thought" id be blogging like a hurricane as soon as i got home ( the 22nd ) but it took a few days to catch up on faceboogie, and i was really sore..
so here is a quickie update just "so you know"
everything went really well.
i'm still hurting, as expected , but it's pain from the procedures, not from the cancer... how i was working ,and trying to be a normal person in September is mind boggling. The days in October , leading up to the surgery, were like many episodes of Rod Serling's show -" Night Gallery"
ok that's it for today . i'm pretty THIN ~ 131 lbs
it's ALL good ,, detailed blog very soon . and here's a current photo
tell your friends that LOVE , Prayer , and positive vibes work..... ding !
Thursday, October 16, 2014
today is the day
and then there's this
..................................................................................................
i'm in the hospital,
thanks for the good Vibes,
be back soon
ding
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
did the surgeon just say "oops" ?
oh my , it's been almost two weeks, i haven't worked, i'm on extended leave. i hope i can afford to stay home until January. i like not working, i must confess.
i thought i'd be mr chatty cathy since i had no job , but the last 12 days have been not wonderful.. the tumor senses it's doom, and i had to stop taking all the supliments & additives , so the tumor is really putting a hurt on me.. i do have enough pain pills, and i hope to get off these things VERY soon after surgery, but the pain has been astronomical. it physically hurts to eat, as the effected area is giant, so i've just been sleeping and eating, sleeping and eating. the last few nights the dang thing starts seeping while i'm asleep... eeek , what's the stream of liquid i feel ??? it's a Tosh.0 candidate.. gruesome. i wish it would completely explode, then thursday , they could just mini-vac out what's left.
i did go out and get one more show in,, last friday , at an eastside sports pub,, which usually doesn't work well,, " hi folks, we know you worked your asses off all week, and you're here to drink , watch sports, and talk to your friends, but we are gonna turn the TV's off, and ask that you don't talk, but please be courteous to the comics" .... and the kitchen used a "bell" , like me , so i couldn't use mine. super bummer..
but i just wanted to get some stage juice, and do a few minutes,, no guitar, go up early and get out. the lighting was underpar,, the crowd was talkative , i was asking myself , why was i here ?? , i'm "sick" with the cancer, full blown pain, wtf ?? well, that's the comic still left in me,, if i stayed home, in just as much pain, knowing there was a show close by ,, i would have gone insane not going ,, what a spiral of thoughts..... and then --my set was awesome,, i had great action 100% , had the whole room,, fan-tas-tic! GLAD i did that.. and one of my most favorite superFans , a Jem of a performer herself , was there !!
so ,, good thing i did that set .. then it was right back to "sleepy the cancer" boy..
i've been cleaning some too, but mostly sleeping as much as possible
i am ready to get in there and have them work their magic.. it must be wild to cut into someone, and there will be 3 of them , as a team,, i bet they are stoked to fix me.. i want to see the blob in a jar !!!
so if you'd like to do one more Good Vibes Transmission , it's going to be early, but at 8 am , thursday , if you'd like to pause, maybe 15 seconds , and send the SURGERY team some love and positive molecules... that would be great... your powerful vibes have been invigorating to me, so lets send the doctors & nurses some good JuJu too
if you've been doing the 11:11 - smile for otto , i've been feeling them,, thanks !!
i am as ready as i can be.. am i scared ?? well fuck yeah,, who wouldn't be.. it's natural.. (( let us not entertain any possible side effects or " dang , wish that didn't happen")) seriously - i KNOW everything will turn out "way better than we thought it would go".. so lets stick with ALL POSITIVES
after the operation, i will have lots of healing time, and i will have to stay home,, so expect more frequent blogging. some entertaining stuff too.. i already have a list of topics started
i must get back to being creative..
my mind is what i miss most
it's been the best 27 months of my life.. the cancer part sucked BIG time,, but everything else has been beautiful..
most beautiful - you people,, yes you ,, some i haven't ever met , but those vibes i ask for are felt, i may not have talked to you in person, but I've felt you,, your thoughts have melded into my being,, you have changed the course of my life.. that's pretty cool... i told some jokes, sang a song or two. but YOU , you've helped save my life.
october is a favorite month for me , Dad's b day , Rapper's B day , Heather & I met oct 9th 2008- at a GearHeads show, Mary's b day, Esperanza "leaves" 10 /23, and 10 /28 - 26 years of sobriety..
and now add 10 / 16 ~ Chop-Cut-Cancer..
i would never wish what i have on anybody, "you don't want any of this Dewey", but if you could be inside me for a zillionth of a second,, your mind would be blown by the amount of love you'd feel that is sent my way.
health report
weight 136
strength 98%
attitude very good
pain 10 + in spikes , constant 6
tumor it's ALIVE
ok, ,,
i humbly say thank you !
oh my - the good vibes, the prayers, the $ fund, the quick positive messages ,they have all added together to get me through this . i'd be so screwed without all of your help
Lil Buddy tellin me what's what
ok,, keep the love flowing , in every direction
i thought i'd be mr chatty cathy since i had no job , but the last 12 days have been not wonderful.. the tumor senses it's doom, and i had to stop taking all the supliments & additives , so the tumor is really putting a hurt on me.. i do have enough pain pills, and i hope to get off these things VERY soon after surgery, but the pain has been astronomical. it physically hurts to eat, as the effected area is giant, so i've just been sleeping and eating, sleeping and eating. the last few nights the dang thing starts seeping while i'm asleep... eeek , what's the stream of liquid i feel ??? it's a Tosh.0 candidate.. gruesome. i wish it would completely explode, then thursday , they could just mini-vac out what's left.
i did go out and get one more show in,, last friday , at an eastside sports pub,, which usually doesn't work well,, " hi folks, we know you worked your asses off all week, and you're here to drink , watch sports, and talk to your friends, but we are gonna turn the TV's off, and ask that you don't talk, but please be courteous to the comics" .... and the kitchen used a "bell" , like me , so i couldn't use mine. super bummer..
but i just wanted to get some stage juice, and do a few minutes,, no guitar, go up early and get out. the lighting was underpar,, the crowd was talkative , i was asking myself , why was i here ?? , i'm "sick" with the cancer, full blown pain, wtf ?? well, that's the comic still left in me,, if i stayed home, in just as much pain, knowing there was a show close by ,, i would have gone insane not going ,, what a spiral of thoughts..... and then --my set was awesome,, i had great action 100% , had the whole room,, fan-tas-tic! GLAD i did that.. and one of my most favorite superFans , a Jem of a performer herself , was there !!
so ,, good thing i did that set .. then it was right back to "sleepy the cancer" boy..
i've been cleaning some too, but mostly sleeping as much as possible
i am ready to get in there and have them work their magic.. it must be wild to cut into someone, and there will be 3 of them , as a team,, i bet they are stoked to fix me.. i want to see the blob in a jar !!!
so if you'd like to do one more Good Vibes Transmission , it's going to be early, but at 8 am , thursday , if you'd like to pause, maybe 15 seconds , and send the SURGERY team some love and positive molecules... that would be great... your powerful vibes have been invigorating to me, so lets send the doctors & nurses some good JuJu too
if you've been doing the 11:11 - smile for otto , i've been feeling them,, thanks !!
i am as ready as i can be.. am i scared ?? well fuck yeah,, who wouldn't be.. it's natural.. (( let us not entertain any possible side effects or " dang , wish that didn't happen")) seriously - i KNOW everything will turn out "way better than we thought it would go".. so lets stick with ALL POSITIVES
after the operation, i will have lots of healing time, and i will have to stay home,, so expect more frequent blogging. some entertaining stuff too.. i already have a list of topics started
i must get back to being creative..
my mind is what i miss most
it's been the best 27 months of my life.. the cancer part sucked BIG time,, but everything else has been beautiful..
most beautiful - you people,, yes you ,, some i haven't ever met , but those vibes i ask for are felt, i may not have talked to you in person, but I've felt you,, your thoughts have melded into my being,, you have changed the course of my life.. that's pretty cool... i told some jokes, sang a song or two. but YOU , you've helped save my life.
october is a favorite month for me , Dad's b day , Rapper's B day , Heather & I met oct 9th 2008- at a GearHeads show, Mary's b day, Esperanza "leaves" 10 /23, and 10 /28 - 26 years of sobriety..
and now add 10 / 16 ~ Chop-Cut-Cancer..
i would never wish what i have on anybody, "you don't want any of this Dewey", but if you could be inside me for a zillionth of a second,, your mind would be blown by the amount of love you'd feel that is sent my way.
health report
weight 136
strength 98%
attitude very good
pain 10 + in spikes , constant 6
tumor it's ALIVE
ok, ,,
i humbly say thank you !
oh my - the good vibes, the prayers, the $ fund, the quick positive messages ,they have all added together to get me through this . i'd be so screwed without all of your help
Lil Buddy tellin me what's what
ok,, keep the love flowing , in every direction
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