the secrets out

i 've  had a super bad case of the what-if's the last few days..

like  what if  i didn't get alkaline enough

or  what if the cancer has spread into  100's  of places

what if i was completely wrong with my treatment choice, and  very soon  all of my organs  will be  shutting down

i was  doing so good, and one good  mental glitch threw me back, way  back ,, to  having me think i was doomed again

i bounced back enough to write this report.

thanks  for hanging in there with me 



i just have  to keep thinking of the  correct stuff

health report 

strength............ very good
attitude ............ not  fantastic
pain ................. tiny . upper back
weight ............. 149
overall ............. 8.5           bummed about the  what if's


the  dogs are always  happy.  it's the  simple life




 

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i had to take a break from the  blog.  but i'm back.

since diagnosis, i've learned that some people are just wonderful.   so many folks  have  helped me, it's mind blowing.

i was ready to get settled into nice warm spring weather , but  that is on hold for a few days..  april  &  may will be really nice this year,  last year i was a spooled up about  retiring, which set off the  dang cancer.   

i 've been trying to relax, and stay in the present,, no futuristic plans to stress me out ..  i'm ready to start doing 20 plus gigs a month again

my life is really nice right now,, this will be a much better summer than last year , but i will be working, and not just laying in the yard , turning orange 

 

i got a bit off center

my mind is getting much better. finally

i must apologize to any one who i may have hurt with my opinions about  cancer treatment.   i posted a lot of unqualified thoughts,, my opinions.  

i started the blog  to get this stuff out of my  head and so people could keep up with what i was  going through..  


i certainly didn't want to make any one feel bad,  or scare somebody with my thoughts.

so i feel very good,  it's got to be the diet and all the positive vibes from everyone.  thank you

" you can feel real good, and have a shit load of cancer in you " ..  this was  told to me from a cancer survivor, . 

 i will keep all future posts positive





    

 

more goodness

i found another great website , if you know someone dealing with cancer , pass this page on to them . 

 http://www.naturalcuresnotmedicine.com/p/cure-cancer.html


i  just  got it sent  to me yesterday ,  i wish i found this one back in july ,, no problem,,  i am super  OK !!

last nights show was at the Elks in Robinson  Ill..  another  sold out big room.. fantastic positive energy...  the  show  biz high  was huge .

i got to chat with some people about what i am doing , they were amazed,, as in , didn't know anything about food stopping cancer.

i am  feeling so alive ,, 

have a safe  St patty's  day & night !!

oh lookie !!

and here  it is  folks,, the grapefruit ... 

 imagine if  my tumor  did get this big ,, holy crap...

 i was at costco getting carrots, and  just  had  to size  up  this little beauty.. 



if  i have any cancer issues in the future i will  have to blame  the PET scan,, that dang thing was even worse than i originally thought...   if  you know anyone who might be scheduled  for one of these , make  sure they look up what they are in  for..  i was warned, but  didn't  research it  enough...

check it  out   biopsy day , june 22nd .  

still  have not  swapped  diet , and  now  i'm waiting  for results about this


day before  PET  scan  july 21st ,, i've been on the  diet  for 18 days

3  hours  after PET scan

 the next day ...

it  gets  a bit  bigger , then i see the  radiologist on July  27th


he  said  his machine  could not have made  my tumor bigger , and  i needed  chemo




health report

weight                   149
attitude                   getting really  great
pain                        .001
strength                  best
tumor  size             smallest , and extra  wiggly

overall  score         9.7   


 

winner winner chiken dinner

try this,   think of the best you've ever felt..   was it for seconds , or minutes?  maybe it was years... was it from "winning"  something? or just an accomplishment ??  sit  back,, take a few  seconds and really think -  what is the best  you've ever felt ?  maybe it was another person.  what ever it might be,, try to get "there" now.   to that happy place , it's there  waiting...............relax.. really think

ok , that feels good, add a few nice slow deep breaths,, bingo

as you searched for the  best you ever  felt , many  nice memories popped up.   like the tops of  mountains, these happy  moments / feelings are always available. 

last night , the positive energy from the crowd was just mind blowing.. this show ..  

 

it's an easy gig if you are in a show  with Dave "the king " Wilson,, so the place was packed. 

anyway.. what i am trying to say is that i have been  dancing on happy mountain tops  since  March. 

   if i have some nice  calm breathing, this power full smile starts to take over my whole face.   if i flip my mind from july to now , back n forth, like a thick  book,  it makes me laugh to know i wasted so much thought and energy on doom & gloom from the  cancer.  i  instantly started feeling better        ( with the diet fine tuning) , so my whole battle was mental,,and a mental battle  for me can be quite  involved .. and now it's  all getting kinda  funny

i wish   someone  handed me a slip of paper that said , -- eat all of this , and in 9 months you'll be in the best  health ever , don't  worry about  it ,,               maybe if Mr Fong would have made me a special fortune cookie,  

i guess to sum up , i feel like i've won the Indy 500, and it's starting to soak in


keep sending the good  vibes,, if my cancer battle was a show car, we'd be wet sanding it...   all that's left is the buffing  

 and to my Hungarian friends  - egeszseges napot kivanok!

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get out the party hats

i'm no doctor, i'm  doing this to myself, to myself

sorry about the  gap in blogs,  i wanted to let all those ha ha-s get loose

8 month re-cap...........

first , i feel great..  people say i look good too

2nd.   the mind bending never ending horrible cancer thoughts are starting to diminish....    

even though i know i've got it beat ,  there is still a small lump on my neck.  way smaller than biopsy time.    you can't see it unless you know  exactly where it is..  last May when my lump was this big , i wasn't even worried about it yet.

i saved at least $250,000- 400,000  in medical bills by doing what i've  done.      and my plan is very tasty

sometimes i just want to punch a representative of the cancer industry in the dag gone face.  not from me, but  for all the people who get  into treatment that is going to make them worse..  i made it ,  so i'm good ,, no regrets here  

if i die from cancer, ever , i will be  shocked.. i'd bet on a lightning strike getting me  way before "cancer"  kills me..

i'd love to run into the doctor somewhere where he wasn't at the cancer center , and i wasn't at work,, so we were both  "off the clock" .. i'd like  to calmly ask him -  "do you even wonder how i did it ?  " 

my life is the best it's ever been,,  it's wacky ,  ya  get cancer,,  ooooooooooooooo,, spooky, scary stuff,, everything seems grim to horrible.  for me , the answer, is proper foods and vitamins..  holy crap. and almost instantly i felt way better  
my blood test came back with good results, i really am healthy 

i use to hate reading,, now i kind of like it, thanks cancer!

there is a bunch of loving people out there who are cheering me on, and lifting me up ,, thanks  cancer !!

i feel like i'm 18 again,,    thanks cancer !!!

and now  ! -  ( to me ). i've beat cancer

still  might have some, but it's not an issue.  this is MY opinion, i am no doctor  



the  first 6 months were tough, month 7 was a good turn-around month. february was  hee-larious!!!!  to me anyway..    when the december grapefruit was a pea size lump, i knew i was way up  on my  battle ,, but  since the doc was wrong , maybe  he was wrong about the  time line too.    that's  how the  funky cancer what  if's  work..  so in january, my "grave condition"  month didn't happen,   i knew i was doing great.          no complete cancer take over of my upper body, hilarious.     then  february - " you'll basically be done" month..    i didn't even feel bad.., i feel great.

march 5th ,, wow .  two thumbs up.  GIANT smile on my face.

if i could  split screen my mind from last august / to now,, what a difference.

so thank you !! for wishing me well - it worked. 

now we need to let people know that even in what seems to be the worst thing ever, can be the spring board to wellness and a much better life..

now , i did none of these , so this is speculation 

here's a few good what if's...   
**what if i did sign up for treatment,  and the feeding tube got infected,
 ***what if i lost more weight than  planned, and my radiation mask was loose - making each treatment hit the wrong spot
** what if the chemo did get me "this close to death" and i got that flu in october - like i did
** what if my fillings did 'boil' out of my teeth.  bummer
** what if the  tonsillectomy  went bad 


whew,, pretty close..

rejoice everybody                   it's a great day